Showing posts with label rest in peace. Show all posts
Showing posts with label rest in peace. Show all posts

Thursday, March 20, 2025

the future is coming on...

♪♫ Clint Eastwood - Gorillaz

Its been over a month since David Lynch passed away. The grief has been up and down. It still feels hard to believe that he is gone. He has had such a major impact on my life. I have been honouring him in different ways since my last blog post. For starters, I re-watched the first two seasons of Twin Peaks (which I typically do every February since that is when the story begins in the show). I am going to watch the third season and movie too, but I got caught up in school work, so it won't happen until April. In addition to watching Twin Peaks, I also gave myself Twin Peaks themed nails!


After the news of his death, I had ordered myself a few items that I didn't yet have for my David Lynch collection. Prices for David Lynch items began to soar after his death, so I had to jump on a few major items from my wishlist to secure them before I couldn't afford them. Those items were: On The Air on DVD, Lynch on Lynch, and Twin Peaks: The Final Dossier. They finally all arrived and I'm thrilled! I just wish I was able to find the book Catching The Big Fish for a reasonable price. Prior to his death, it was around $40. Now the book is around $125, which is way too much in my opinion. I do need it to complete my collection of books about David's life. Hopefully I come across a cheaper one!


I also just recently ordered Hotel Room on Blu-ray. Hotel Room, like On The Air, was never released on anything other than VHS because they were both shows that were cancelled before they even reached the midway of their first season. The VHS tapes are also quite rare, and often expensive. I do own Hotel Room on VHS, which was only $30, but VHS is not a stable form of media and will degrade over time. There are a couple companies in California that convert rare media onto DVD and Blu-ray, which is where I got On The Air. I recently chose a second company (mainly because it was cheaper) to purchase Hotel Room on Blu-ray, so that I'll have a long-lasting and stable copy of this rare piece of media. I am expecting it to arrive in the mail any day now. The tracking says it has reached Canada, but it may take a day or two for the mail carrier to pick it up.


I also jumped on ordering this because of the Tarriffs that the United States government is putting on Canada. I have no idea how this will impact things like purchasing DVDs and Blu-rays, but I am just being safe. I have shifted entirely to purchasing DVDs and Blu-rays in Canada for the past month or so, but due to the rarity of Hotel Room, there was no other option aside from California to buy it from. Going forward I am limiting my purchases of DVDs and Blu-rays from the United States to only very rare ones that can't otherwise be purchased (or are highly unlikely to be purchased) here in Canada.

In general, I am avoiding purchases of items from the United States, as are many Canadians. It turns out that most items I purchased for groceries were already Canadian (with the exception of fruits that are from Mexico & South America), so I didn't need to make many changes. The only items I am having a hard time finding alternatives for are salad greens (spinach, lettuce, & argula), makeup (I use ELF, Nyx, & Maybelline mostly), and coldbrew coffee (I'm working on making my own at home). I suppose it isn't about perfection, just doing what I can. I may still need to continue buying American makeup. There are many non-American makeup brands, but I have sensitive and difficult skin, and I spent years finding the perfect products that work for me. It would be highly challenging to go through that process again. I don't wear makeup everyday anyways, so I only really purchase makeup a few times a year.

I am giving up my mini addiction to Bath and Body Works products, because they are American. Instead, I'm focusing on Lush. I already love Lush and buy products there often, so its not a hard switch at all. Not every item and store is as easy to simply label as American or non-American. I shop at Winners (the Canadian version of TJ Maxx), and I recently purchased a Juicy Couture dreamer bag. The bag said it was made somewhere other than the United States (I think it was the United Kingdom). American brand? Yes. Created outside of the United States and supports jobs of a country friendly to Canada? Yes. My rule is that if it was made outside of the United States, even if the company is American, I'll buy it (unless the company has been vocally pro-Trump, then its a hard no). I also made the exception for the Tupperware heritage collection because Tupperware has gone out of business and the heritage collection is my only chance to have Tupperware that looks just like vintage ones, but without the lead/other chemicals. I have collected six pieces so far.


I don't plan on visiting the United States either. Honestly, I'm too scared. Tourists have been detained by ICE for no good reason, and the pro-Trump crowd seems to think Canadians are evil. I loved visiting the United States and I have met many lovely Americans, but the risk has become too high for me. I'm glad I got to see New York City, Salem, Bangor, and all the other places I visisted before all this political stuff happened. My next trip is to Europe (Ireland, Scotland, England, France, & Norway), and after that, I'm focusing on Montreal, Quebec (here in Canada), and either Cuba or the Domincan Republic. In a way this is good for me, because it pushes me to travel outside of my comfort zone. The United States felt familiar and most Americans couldn't tell I was Canadian, so there wasn't a culture shock or much difficulty in figuring things out. I know that'll be different in Europe. I think It'll be especially challenging in France with the language barrier and the much higher standards for everything.

I wish the world was an easier place, and I wish people were more caring and respectful of each other. Its a shame that hatred has taken over so much. I am trying to remain optimistic, but its hard. I do hope everyone is taking care of themselves and taking breaks from the news. That is all for now!

Monday, January 20, 2025

happy birthday david lynch

♪♫ I Know - David Lynch

Its been four days since I found out David Lynch passed away. The grief has been intense and challenging to deal with. I have never experienced grief like this for a person I had never met, nor did I anticipate experiencing grief like this. He just had such a profound impact on my life. I seen a post from a girl who said that David Lynch was like a lighthouse for weirdos, and I couldn't agree more. I've always been weird, and he made me see that weird is beautiful and nothing to hide. I am proudly weird because of him.

Today would have been his 79th birthday, so happy heavenly birthday David. I hope wherever you are, there is lots of coffee, infinite cigarettes, and a studio with endless art supplies. To celebrate his birthday, I participated in the ten minute meditation session his family invited his fans to join in on. I also had two cookies and a Coke. I think that will be my new tradition every January 20th; meditation, followed by two cookies and a Coke. I am also re-watching Eraserhead tonight. I have already re-watched The Art Life and Lynch (one).

I miss him so much.

Thursday, January 16, 2025

rest in peace david lynch

♪♫ Summertime Sadness ~ Lana Del Rey

I haven't blogged in a while, and while I have lots of knew and positive updates in life, I won't be writing about them in this blog. Today one of my favorite humans passed away; David Lynch. A man who inspired me with his art, his weirdness, and his dedication to being true to himself. He was a filmmaker, an artist, a musician, and a photographer. David's had many artistic talents, and his style was completely unique. No one will ever be able to replicate what David achieved. He was a master of his own craft, an auteur. I've never experienced such heartbreak and grief from the loss of a person I had never even met. He really impacted my life in major ways and I'll always love him for that, and I'll miss him forever. Here are some photos of the pieces of David that live in my world...

Me in 2011, wearing my David Lynch shirt (I still have it). It has since gotten a bit worn out, so I have a new one.

This beautiful painting of David Lynch that my dad made for me (he is an artist).

My David Lynch enamel pin, so I can bring him with me on the go.

My Mulholland Drive tattoo, one of my favorite films ever, and one of my favorite David Lynch films.

I love Twin Peaks so much (the show David co-created with Mark Frost), that I used to sell these replica rings on Etsy. This is one I kept for myself.

My mini David Lynch figure, and all my books that are connected to David Lynch. Some of these are quite rare, and The Diary of Laura Palmer is a first edition copy!

I own most of David's work on DVD, VHS, and Blu-ray. Plus I added my Twin Peaks figure set, which my dad gave me for my birthday a few years back.

It'll take me a while to process this pain. To bring a shred of joy to ease my sorrow, I have finally ordered myself the complete series of On The Air, a show by David Lynch. Its a very rare show, due to the fact it was cancelled and has only seven episodes, and it was never officially released on VHS, DVD, or Blu-ray back in the early '90s when it aired. However, a company in California that specializes in rare media on DVD (legally) has created a DVD copy in recent years, which I have purchased. It has been on my wishlist for a while now, and is one of the only items I had left to buy for my David Lynch cinema collection. I heard good things about it, so I am excited... as excited as I can be right now.


Think I'll miss you forever, like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky...

Saturday, September 5, 2020

dedicated to nick...

♪♫ WAP - Cardi B Ft. Megan Thee Stallion

I've been meaning to write this blog for over a week, but I got super busy. First of all; my vacation was amazing! I went to Cape Breton to see the Cabot Trail with a friend. We stayed in a cute little cottage out in the country, which had a fire pit, so obviously we made tons of smores and roasted hot dogs/veggie dogs! We also drove around to look at scenery, ate at a few different restaurants, did a little shopping, seen some tourist attractions, drank alcohol, listened to awesome tunes, and more. The only bad part of the trip was when we went into a market and we were treated like garbage because I was wearing my Black Lives Matter shirt. People are awful sometimes! Also, before you go on about being a pandemic, my province has 6 active cases and we are being encouraged to travel within the Atlantic provinces, all of which have barely any Covid-19 cases.


Another amazing thing about the trip; I discovered how to use my camera to take professional photography level photos! I wanted to get a picture of the stars because there is minimal light pollution in the country, but I couldn't figure out how to. I ended up Googling it and adjusted the settings on my phone camera (which I bought specifically because its considered one of the best phone cameras for photography). It worked! I took an amazing photo of the night sky, then I took an additional photo of the cottage with the sky in the background. I also got a pretty picture of blue hydrangeas that I spotted in the daylight!



I've been really busy working lately, but I have still gotten to hangout with a friends a bit on a few different occassions. It feels so nice to socialize more. Work has been a drama fest lately. Something awful was emailed to everyone and now the tension is really high. It sucks, but I'm hoping it'll die down and we can all go back to normal. I'm sick of it all. But taking care of myself outside of work has been really helpful. Like I said, I've been socializing more, I have an appointment to get my eyelash extensions re-filled, I have an appointment for another tattoo in a few weeks, I just freshy re-dyed the blue underneath my hair, I ordered myself a tripod for my phone to take more professional photos, I got new clothes (including a really sexy witchy bodysuit), and I've been focused on my goals. I am also going away for a week on the 16th to visit my best friend in New Brunswick. Life is good!


One more thing before I go; its been 10 years since my friend Nick passed away. To Nick; You're not forgotten. Everytime I play a song by Rammstein or watch a cheesy B movie, I think of you. Random things still remind me of memories of you, like McDonald's fries and Super Nintendo. I cherish all those times we hung out together. Rest in peace Nick. 🖤🤘


That is all for now. I hope everyone is well!

Sunday, December 29, 2019

you're my favourite kind of night

♪♫ Earned It - The Weeknd

Merry belated Christmas! Its been a pretty busy time for me. I've had the past week off, so I've mostly been stuffing my face with food, spending time with loved ones and watching movies/TV shows (mostly You season 2, AHS: Freakshow & The Office). Its been nice to not be dealing with work stuff. I needed the break. Sadly I work for 8 days straight starting tomorrow (by choice - that way I don't lose money & I have another week off afterwards). Hopefully its not too rough!

As far as mail goes, I got a few things that I ordered a while ago; a sun/moon handmade scarf, IT: Chapter Two on Blu-ray and Once Upon a Time in Hollywood on Blu-ray.


My Christmas was great! I had 3 Christmas meals; I went to my work's Christmas dinner, I spent Christmas Eve with my family and Christmas day with my boyfriend's family. They were all full of delicious food! As always, I had Gardein's stuffed turk'y on Christmas day, which was delicious. Also, even though I opened up all my Christmas gifts on my birthday, I still had a few to open on Christmas day! I got a desk calendar, thermal socks, handmade knitted mittens, and 3 gift cards.


Now that the year is coming to an end, here are my top 5 favorite movies that came out in 2019:


1. IT: Chapter Two
2. The Lighthouse
3. Joker
4. Once Upon a Time in Hollywood
5. Knives Out


What are your favorite films of 2019?

Finally, I just wanted to post this picture of my grandfather and I when I was a kid. He used to always dress up as The Grinch every year around Christmas. He passed away in December 2016 before Christmas. He is very missed. ♥


How was everyone's holiday season? I hope it went well!

Wednesday, September 25, 2019

giving my life to a rainbow like you

♪♫ Bold As Love - Jimi Hendrix

What a week its been! And not in a good way... I've been stressed. After my last blog, I had my final driving class and there was a test at the end. I nearly failed it. I just barely passed. Even though I did pass... I still felt very disappointed in myself. I'm used to much higher marks! I think its mostly because I had to sit and listen to someone talk for 7 classes which were 3.5 hours each time. I don't have a good attention span for that. Plus I haven't taken a test in a long time either, so I was anxious. At least it was multiple choice though... I think that saved me.

I was so stressed the day after the test, that I ended up being 15 minutes late because I just couldn't pull myself together. Ugh. Good thing my work is very understanding/laid back about being late, so it wasn't an issue. However... I got some bad news at work. The position I was hoping to apply for has been filled. What happened is they posted for the full time version of the position and then decided to just hire all positions from the applicants. I can see from their point of view why they did it; overnight worker positions are hard to fill and they wanted it done quick. But... its really unfair that I never got the chance to apply. I'm a bit sour about it. However, there is another position I was considering as well, which has been posted; a live-in support worker. I have a tour of the house on Friday before I make my decision to apply (the deadline is Sunday night). I'm quite certain that I'll be applying though!

On Sunday, my boyfriend came to visit me for the night. As soon as he came in, he could tell something was off... even though I was trying to hide it. I told him about it and he cheered me up! We then went for dinner at a local pub that I've never been to before. He told me that they have the best burgers in town and he was right! They had a veggie burger that, I dare say, is the best veggie burger I have ever had! After that, we came back to my house, watched movies and cuddled. The next morning, I made him breakfast and then we went for a walk to the nearby lake before he headed home. It was a lovely visit!

I had yesterday and today off from work. I was originally intending on trying to get shifts for both days, but then I decided that I really need a break from work. No shifts came up anyways, so it worked out! Yesterday I did absolutely nothing. The only exciting thing I did was eat garlic fingers and watch horror movies. It felt so great to be lazy! Today was a more productive day. I did a couple loads of laundry, re-arranged my room a bit, cleaned a little, made a meal plan for the next week, had a bath, gave myself a facial, watched TV, had a big cup of tea and relaxed in bed! Today was also pay day, which is exciting, haha!

As for shopping in the past week... I did a fair amount. I feel like I'm always shopping! I'm probably a bit addicted, haha. Anyways, I bought this cheesy horror movie at the dollar store last week; Stage Fright. I watched it and it was... different, haha. Not necessarily bad, but it was a musical, which I didn't expect. I also ordered a mini expandable accordion file folder on Ebay. I came up with a great idea to budget my money with it; I'm going to put cash in each section for different things I need to pay for, like; rent, groceries, bus pass, etc. I'm already really good with saving money, but I'm hoping it will help me to save even more!


Oh and before I go; rest in peace Sid Haig aka Captain Spaulding from House of 1000 Corpses (one of my favorite movies of all time). He is a horror icon and will forever be remembered! My best friend Kara is more upset about his death than I am. She was heartbroken. I ended up buying her an extra Christmas gift to add to her package; a Captain Spaulding Funko Pop figure. She is gonna love it! Her own little Sid to keep forever.


That is all for now! I wish I had more to talk about!

Friday, September 6, 2019

i found solace in the strangest place

♪♫ Alive - Sia

Hello there! First things first; yesterday was the 9 year anniversary of my friend Nick's death. Its hard to believe that its been that long. Rest in peace Nick! You are greatly missed. ♥


On a happier note... guess what?! I began my driving classes on Tuesday! It wasn't too bad. I definitely would prefer to be getting actual driving lessons, but the driving school I'm attending requires 7 classes to be taken first before driving. Its not ideal for me, but I'm getting through it! Aside from that, I worked a couple times this week, had a doctor's appointment, had lunch with my dad, and did some shopping. Not super exciting, but not boring, haha...

For shopping, I went to the mall on Tuesday and treated myself to a few things; a comfy plaid scarf, a bag of candy corn, cute notebooks, and a book sleeve (using it for my planner). Also, today I got an email from Amazon saying that Supernatural season 14 has shipped. I had completely forgotten that I pre-ordered it months ago! I'm excited to watch it when it arrives on Tuesday. I haven't seen any of it yet! Its sad to think that there is only one more season being made...


Earlier this week, my area got a hurricane warning. Tomorrow, hurricane Dorian is supposed to hit us as a category 2. There will definitely be damage and power outages. I went with my family this evening to get some supplies; non-perishable foods, a solar powered lamp, and a large candle. Plus I already had another large candle and a flashlight. I also am charging up all my electronic devices. I have a portable charger that is quite strong as well, so that will help me keep devices charged for a few days.


If you are being affected by hurricane Dorian; stay safe! Make sure you have lots of supplies and take care of each other. ♥

I'm off now and probably won't have power after tomorrow... wish me luck!

Monday, February 6, 2017

its been a long time

♪♫ Come Together - The Beatles

It's been a really long time since I wrote a blog! I'm so sorry... I was just super busy and distracted. Since my last blog, a lot has happened. I'll do that whole bullet point thing to talk about everything... and it won't be in any particular order either!

  • I made a group of friends at college! There are seven of us all together; one guy and six girls. I also made some other friends that I'm not as close with, but that I talk to and get along with pretty well.

  • My grandfather was in the hospital for the last two week of my first semester at college. I finished my work as fast as possible and got home a day early to see him. I got to hug him and tell him that I love him. He ended up passing away a few hours after I left. It was very upsetting and difficult to deal with. Rest in peace granddad! ❤️


  • I ordered a bunch of stuff online and now I'm just waiting until I go home again to pick everything up. Here is what I got: a vintage sun mug from the '90s, a coffin purse, a skull bag, a sun/moon drawstring bag, a southwestern knitted sweater, an "I need more space" shirt, a tie dye sun/moon tapestry, Rob Zombie's 31 on Blu-ray, a new phone case, a new phone charger and a 5th generation iPod nano.


  • Twin Peaks officially has a release date! I'm so excited!


  • I went out with my friends for my first night of drinking in college. We got a beer tower and everyone had wings, except for another girl and myself because we are vegetarians.


  • I got some awesome stuff for my birthday and Christmas!


  • I had a freezer cake for my birthday! I didn't feel like having anything fancy.


  • My dad painted two things for me for my birthday and Christmas; a black hole from the film Interstellar and a desert scenery at sunset from a postcard.


  • I made shortbread cookies during the winter break.


  • I went to Saint John during the week of Christmas to spend time with my mom and my friends. It was not a good week and I regret spending my Christmas there.

  • The only part of visiting Saint John that was good, was when I visited my best friend Kara and we had a sleepover. She lives outside of Saint John in a place called St. Stephen which is right on the Canada/US border. So we got a picture of us with the US in the background! So cool! Aside from that, we watched Rob Zombie's 31, ate junk food, talked about memories, video chatted with an old friend, got stoned and listened to music!


  • I went to see Split with a couple female friends. It was so nice to take a break from school and go out for some fun. The movie was really good too! So worth it! I even splurged for popcorn, M&Ms and pop.


  • I got some extra money and used it to buy some kitchen appliances, dish towels, dishes, etc. I made myself a little kitchen area in my bedroom and I'm so happy with it!


  • I went to see Fantastic Beasts & Where to Find Them for my birthday! It was amazing! I can't wait for the next one!

  • A few nights ago I was at school till 7pm working on stuff. After I got it all completed, I went to Sobeys and got vegan Mexican food, chocolate chip cookies and root beer. Once I got home, I put my fuzzy robe on, ate my food and watched Netflix; specifically the new episode of Riverdale. I'm becoming so addicted to that show! Its a new favorite for sure!


  • I passed my first semester of college with good marks, except for one class that I passed with a 60. I don't feel too bad though, because most people got low marks in that class.



  • That is all for now. I'm currently attempting to write a paper that is due on Friday and its really hard... ugh. Wish me luck!