making me so wild now

♪♫ National Anthem - Lana Del Rey

Before I start; today is the birthday of two special people in my life! Starting with my godson Bentley. It feels like it was only yesterday that I held him in the hospital when he was just a couple days old. Time really flies by. He is two years old now! Even though I don't get to see him as much as I'd like; I love him dearly. Happy birthday B-man! I hope he enjoys the present that BJ and I bought for him. :) ♥


The second birthday is my dear friend Robyn's. I've known her for nearly eight years. We've had a really crazy friendship. We have a lot of amazing memories. She lives far away now though, so I don't get to see her anymore. But we still talk. And I'm hopefully gonna see in a few weeks when she visits here. Anyways, I love her like a sister and hope she has an awesome day. Happy birthday Robyn! I wish I could have bought you something, but I'm broke. :P ♥


Hmm...other than that...today has been pretty dull. Nothing came in the mail for me. Which is surprising...considering the amount of stuff I ordered, LOL. Oh...I did have that Bible study I talked about before. It was two hours long and very interesting. I still don't plan on going to church. But its fascinating to learn about. And the lady gave me a gift; a little case filled with pens and pencils. It also matches my room; red, black with zebra print! Strange, because the lady has never seen my room. O.o

I'm gonna ask my mum if Matt can come over for a bit. I feel like watching movies and eating popcorn. Yum! Still not feeling too well though. I'm probably gonna lay down most of the time. Hmm. We'll see how this goes. :P

fire all of your guns at once

♪♫ Born To Be Wild - Steppenwolf

Monday was a somewhat unpleasant day. Although...I did receive the triple feature of Psycho sequels on DVD. Yay! I was kinda expecting more packages to arrive. Ugh. I'm so impatient, LOL. Anyways, my mum and I got into a bit of a fight. No surprise. We were talking and I brought up the fact that I almost drowned when I was in pre-school. She freaked out and said that I lie for attention because I have mental illness. I was so hurt and shocked. She told me that she believes the pre-school teacher, even though she lied to save her job. -_-


She later apologized and said she doesn't like to talk about it. Or anything negative at all, for that matter. But not everything in life is positive. She needs to realize that. So yeah...I pretty much just spent my day having a Psycho movie marathon. And my bladder infection isn't improving. I think I need to go back to the doctor. Ugh. I also agreed to do Bible study with my mum's church friend. I have no intention of going to church. I'm against religion. But I love learning about it. I'll see how it goes. :P

Tuesday was...meh. I got White Star by Elizabeth Vaughan in the mail. Wooo! Now my Epic of Palins collection is complete. And I decided to do some drawing too. My first drawing was inspired by David Lynch's Inland Empire. If you seen the movie, you'd get the references in the drawing. The second one is a...warrior faerie? Not too sure. I had no plans in mind when I started it. Turned out pretty weird looking to be honest. And once again; no improvement with my bladder infection. Ahhhh. D:



Today was pretty great. I got The Elephant Man on DVD in the mail. Wooo! And BJ was kind enough to take pity upon my poor ass and buy me $65 worth of groceries. Which should last for the month. I'm hoping. I also got my prescription filled. And we had to walk to the liquor store for Kara, which I wasn't too happy about. But I'm so thankful that BJ helped me with everything. Especially helping me carry everything on the bus, then from the bus stop to my house...in the pouring rain. We were completely soaked.


I changed into dry clothes once we got to my house, and I gave BJ a towel to sit on. He passed me everything from the bags and I put them away. I kept smiling as my fridge got filled up. I'm glad that I have good friends to help me out when I'm in need. Anyways, his mum came and picked us up a little while later (& I brought Bentley's birthday present & card for Kara to take to him - his birthday is tomorrow!). And we made it all the way to the west side...then we realized that we forgot Kara's liquor in my room. So we had to go back to get it. xD

Kara showed up at BJ's not long after we arrived. The night was pretty great. A lot of talking, laughing, and playing Monopoly (which I won). But they both got tired early, so BJ's mum drove us home. And she was nice enough to stop at Subway for me, so that I could get some dinner. Yum! My appetite has been kinda fucked up lately, so I feel happy when I actually eat something. :P

strangest life i've ever known

♪♫ Waiting For The Sun - The Doors

current playlist

Bron-Y-Aur Stomp - Led Zeppelin
Waiting For The Sun - The Doors
Putting Holes In Happiness - Marilyn Manson
Coma Black - Marilyn Manson
Time Of Your Life - Green Day
Bold As Love - Jimi Hendrix
God Gave Rock and Roll to You - Kiss
Otherside - Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Wanted Dead Or Alive - Bon Jovi
I accidentally deleted the last blog I wrote. I don't think it was all that important anyways, but I'm still kinda pissed at myself. I gotta stop fucking around with different settings on Blogger...

my new tie dye smoke tin
I had a pretty good weekend. Starting with buying the tie dye smoke tin seen in the picture above, on Friday afternoon. Then I headed to Kara's house. The cab driver I got was hitting on me (he even added me to Facebook). Then when I got to Kara's, we went to the store to get smokes and munch, then headed down to Garnet's. We chilled out for a bit. Then around 10pm, we started drinking. Shayne, Alycia and Garnet all showed up later to drink with us. I was completely hammered. The night ended with a fight and crying...it was a huge mess.

On Saturday, Garnet got called into work. I ended up hanging out with his Parents, uncle and brother. They were all drinking and getting stoned. I had a beer. We all did karaoke. It was really embarrassing. Garnet showed up with an epic sub and did some karaoke. He was way better than all of us. We went to bed early.

We woke up on Sunday and ended up getting into a silly fight for an hour. Then we made up and watched Silence Of The Lambs. I got to eat Smartfood Popcorn and drink root beer. Garnet gave me chicken stuffed with ham 'n cheese. I got my GameCube back. I headed home to have a relaxing bath and eat chicken stuffed with ham 'n cheese, with hash browns on the side.

My weekend was good. And I still have money left over from the weekend (between $60 - $70). I'm gonna get some make up, baby wipes, nachos 'n cheese, milk and a book (haven't decided what one yet). I'm either gonna go tonight or tomorrow night. I'm not feeling too good right now...so most likely tomorrow.

P.S. I had a fucked up dream last night. I was trapped in a church. My mum was being super nice. We had a pet mouse that liked to dress up and talk. There was vampires in the church. We had to escape before the sun went down. My mum, my friend Sophie, her little sister Louise and my pet mouse all got out first and waited on the front lawn for me. Then I got out and looked back, seen a random goth kid in the window. Grabbed the goth kid and ran away from the church just in time. The vampires awakened and the goth kid turned into a vampire. We all got freaked out. Then she told us that she was a good vampire. She lived in the church her whole life and she never hurt a single person. So we took her with us and ran from the church.

faces come out of the rain

♪♫ People Are Strange - The Doors

On Friday I was stuck at Garnet's, by myself. I had a horror movie marathon to pass the time. I watched; Identity, Devour, American Psycho 2 and The Texas Chainsaw Massacre. The best one was Identity. The ending absolutely blew my mind! But yeah...that is how I spent my night. It was fucking boring as hell.

Garnet came home from work really late and spent a little bit of time together, then we went to sleep. When we woke up, we both got ready and his mum drove us to Jungle Jim's for our date. Of course Garnet would be the one to turn a date into an eating competition. He ordered the Head Hunter five pound meal challenge. Only two other people have ever completed it and if you succeed, you get a free meal. But he got three pounds in and gave up. Then we walked around and he began feeling quite sick.

His mum picked us up and drove us to the store near his house, because he wanted to rent a movie. But instead he bought me ice cream and we sat outside for bit. Until he needed to go home, because he was about to be sick. We only got to spend a little bit of time together, because I had to go home. I really didn't want to, but my mum missed me and insisted on it.

When I got home, I ended up staying up late and watching Devil. Which was a fucking awesome movie! Then I watched Wrong Turn. It was pretty awesome, but I liked the third one better (I seen the third one way before the first one). Then I finally crashed and went to sleep.

I woke up with a terrible sick feeling. I had a headache, nausea and heartburn. My mum wanted me to go to the morning service at church with her, but I was way too sick to go. So I went back to sleep. I woke up in the afternoon and my mum convinced me to go to the evening service. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. And afterwards we got free ice cream and cake. I rediscovered my love for strawberry ice cream. :D

We went to Subway afterwards so that I could get a sub and apple juice. I was feeling really weak and shaky. I could barely walk up the road, it was pretty bad. We went home not long after that and I ended up watching Ten Inch Hero and When You're Strange: A Film About The Doors. Both of them were really good, but Ten Inch Hero was the best. Jensen Ackles is one of the stars and in the movie he has a mohawk, piercings, tattoos, etc. Oh my gawsh...he makes such a sexy punk. ♥

Jensen as a sexy punk ♥
I've done nothing interesting today...so far. I might watch a movie later and cook some supper. That's about it. :3

we can be like they are

♪♫ Don't Fear The Reaper - Blue Oyster Cult

The funeral was fuckin' brutal. Tibbs was trying to comfort me, but I felt like I was having a panic attack so I left to sit outside with Missy. When it was all over with, we went to get alcohol. I got drunk right away. Tibbs was fuckin' baked & we went to pick up beer, then we stopped by the church & greasy bobs.

All I remember is sittin' in the truck with Tibbs listening to Girls, Girls, Girls by Motley Crue, haha. When we got back to the house, we watched part of Freddy Got Fingered, then Tibbs & I decided to walk to McDonalds. I got a Oreo McFlurry & nearly fuckin' choked to death. So we walked back (halfway there he gave me a piggyback ride). Then we found out that everyone was kicked out. So our accidental party was ruined.

Tibbs drove me home (after stopping at like a million places & having to see Kat & Caleb fight). Then I made chicken fajitas & watched That 70s Show till I fell asleep.

So I'm not at school right now because my fuckin' alarm clock broke & I lost my phone last night. My school bus pass only works till 9:30 am & I have no money. Basically I'm screwed & I'll probably get kicked out of school.

I'm gonna make some lunch & get ready to go meet Robyn @ McDonalds. Buh-bye!

better hang on if you're tagging along

♫ This Afternoon - Nickelback

Well hello there stranger :), I've decided to get off my lazy ass to write a blog & return comments. Oh & I also changed the layout. But the most important thing is; Happy Birthday Jared Padalecki! ♥ Yes, today is my future husband's birthday. So, have a good one Jared! :) & if you're wondering, that sexy picture you see on the left is Jared. Hes a hottie, eh? Oh yes, I'm obsessed. Speaking of Jared, I had a dream last night that I was in an episode of Supernatural (the show he stars in!). I was Dean (for some odd reason) & we were investigating a case in a small town. A young boy was haunting his old house & scaring his parents. Anyways, I got to drive the Impala & go to a bar! Haha, it was a lot of fun. Best dream ever!

I finally got the diary I wanted! I got it when my grandmother & I went into downtown Halifax last week. I also got stickers, highlighters & a book mark. It was a really fun day. Especially when I got bubble gum & moon mist ice cream (yum!). Then the next day Marty took me to the mall & I bought two sweaters, a hat & hairbands. But wanna know what the best part of the day was? I got to drive a car for the first time! I drove up & down the street, then parked! I can't wait till I get my license!

So yesterday, I was supposed to go to Miller Lake Camp (church camp) & stay overnight. But I ended up changing my mind. Why? Well for two reasons. One; I missed my bed. Two; I had the feeling they didn't like the fact I don't go along with their beliefs. You see, they are Pentecostals & they believe women should have long hair, wear skirts, etc. Thats just not me. I love my pants & I love my short hair. I wont change for anyone!

Earlier today my uncle invited Marty, my grandmother & I to dinner at Steak & Stein (favorite restaurant), so of course I was thrilled to go! We took pictures, talked & ate. It was a really good time! Then after supper we headed to Lawrencetown beach. I walked along the shore looking for colorful rocks & seashells pretty much the whole time. I would have been swimming, but I didn't bring my bathing suit.

Well thats about all I have to talk about. So I'm gonna head upstairs to make a snack. Then I shall relax & watch TV. Bye for now!