every river that I tried to cross

♪♫ Lost! - Coldplay

I finally have gotten around to writing another blog... and it wasn't several months later! Yay!

Well, I did it... I splurged for the LOST Temple set on DVD! I bid on an auction on eBay and didn't win, which made me really sad. I've been trying to get it for so long. I ended up sending a lowball offer to one of the listing I was watching and surprisingly it worked and I got it! It just arrived a couple weeks ago, and I tested all the discs to make sure they worked (they do). The set is in great condition. The novelty items weren't even opened! It looks like the person who owned it must have only watched it a bit and didn't bother with any of the bonuses. Some of the discs did have some superficial scratches (which is why I tested them), but 3/4 were completely scratch-less. I am so excited!

Speaking of LOST items... I also recieved the three LOST novels that I ordered, which were all in perfect condition. Yay! Also... I ordered the LOST: Messages from the Island book, which is a compilation of the best parts of LOST: The Official Magazine, which ended in 2010. It arrived last week, and its also in great condition. I'm having some good luck finding items for decent prices lately!

Truthfully, I have been a bit depressed lately. I have been struggling with my weight and health. I love sugary foods, and cutting them out of my diet has been hard. Overall, I am down 40lbs from my highest weight, but I have 65lbs to go, and it has been a major struggle. Now that I'm in my 30s, I have noticed that weight loss is much more difficult. I heard before that weight loss becomes more challenging with age, but I guess I thought I had more time before that would impact me. Before anyone says it: yes, I have been tracking calories. I use minimal oils/fats when cooking, and I don't drink my calories! I am hoping to be down to at least 185lbs by October, because I have some clothes that are 1-2 sizes too small that I would love to wear on my Europe trip.

Aside from weight loss struggles, I am also having digestive issues. They are slowly improving, but it has become clear due to multiple rounds of eliminating foods for a couple weeks at a time, that I am lactose intolerant. I initially thought it could be gluten, so I cut that out of my diet completely and strictly for two weeks, but felt no different at all. When I removed dairy? My digestive system worked amazingly for two weeks. I find it hard to give up dairy though... I love cheese! I will say that hard cheeses, like cheddar, don't upset my stomach too much in smaller doses (I guess hard cheese is naturally much lower in lactose), but I also love Greek yogurt, sour cream, the occassional ice cream... thankfully I switched to lactose-free Greek yogurt with no issue, but I haven't found any lactose-free sour cream or ice cream that tastes good. However, I purchased Lactaid pills last week, and so far they've been helping for when I eat dairy with lactose!

Another digestive issue I am facing is the massive increase in fiber that is now in my diet. My body wasn't used to eating so much produce, so its been causing discomfort. I am hoping that issue goes away soon! Thankfully I love veggies, and I used to be vegan and vegetarian, so I know how to make delicious meals with veggies. My issue, truly, is that I just love food in general... Anyways, what I'm trying to say is that at least my enjoyment of the meals is keeping me powering through the discomfort. If I hated veggies and was feeling discomfort, this would be so much more difficult.

When it comes to meals I have been making and eating, here are the main ones:
» Fruit smoothie for breakfast with oat milk, high protein Greek yogurt, honey, and a small amount of protein powder. I alternative between the banana/strawberries/blueberry combo and the banana/strawberries/peaches/mango combo.
» Overnight oats made with oat milk, chia seeds, ground flax seed, cocoa powder, dark chocolate chips, cinnamon, honey, and topped with almonds and banana slices.
» Ground turkey taco salad with a big pile of mixed baby greens, tomato, guacamole, salsa, black beans, sour cream, shredded cheese, some organic tortilla chips, and taco seasoning for the meat.
» Homemade ground turkey chili with green pepper, onion, garlic, shredded carrot, kidney beans, diced tomato, tomato sauce, and seasonings.
» African chicken peanut stew with basmati rice, made using sugar-free peanut butter, tomato sauce, red bell pepper, onion, and seasonings. The chicken is skin-on/bone-in chicken thighs, but I never like eating chicken skin, so I save calories by not eating that part.
» Beef stew made with double the carrots called for in the recipe, baby potatoes, onions, garlic, and seasonings.
» Hummus plate, made with roasted red pepper hummus, carrot sticks, sliced bell pepper, cucumber slices, a bit of low fat feta cheese, and sliced up pita bread. The veggies are 2/3 of the meal.
» Ground turkey stuffed bell peppers, with rice, some shredded cheese, and seasonings.
» Low fat chicken/sausage gumbo. I use 1/2 the sausage the recipe calls for and extra chicken to make up for it. I also use 1/2 the oil the recipe calls for, and reduce the amount of floor used. My roux is smaller than what is typically used for the batch size, but I can't justify consuming that much oil/flour! The meal has green bell pepper, celery, onion, okra, garlic, seasonings, and I eat it with basmati rice mixed in.

I know these meals aren't 100% healthy, but it is a significant improvement. I figure that over time I will continue to alter these meals and discover new ones that are even healthier. I definitely need some new recipe ideas right now, because I'm getting a bit sick of the same meals all the time. I used to really enjoy cauliflower "wings" when I was vegan, so I think I'm going to make those soon with some veggies and ranch on the side for lunches. I also would like to try to make Thai red curry with veggies and tofu again. Every time I tried to make it before, it just didn't turn out for some reason. I want to get it right! The restaurant Thai red curry is so good... I don't know how they do it!

Although I am eating much healthier meals, I do still enjoy occassional treats. It isn't realistic to completely cut out junk food. I am aiming for 90% healthy, and 10% junk food. I have a bag of mini chocolate bars (60 calories a piece), and I have a couple of them every other day to keep sugar cravings at bay... and to keep my sanity haha. I also had a big slice of pizza last week for supper, and another night I had a McCrispy burger at McDonald's. I do count the calories of my treats too! That is why I only had the burger with zero calorie pop, and no fries on thes side... the burger is sadly 520 calories by itself! Eventually I'd like to limit my treats to only two sugary ones per week, and one junk food meal per week, but I am taking it slow.

Wow... what a rant, haha. I had so many thoughts to get out about my weight loss and health journey. I hope things improve in the next month or so. I feel like constant digestive issues for months and miminal weight loss will be too discouraging for me...

Another issue that I am experiencing is treating myself for low iron and low magnesium. The iron supplements have been fine. I purposefully purchased ones that are easy on the stomach due to past issues with iron supplements making me sick. I thought I had done the same for the magnesium supplements... but they have made me very sick. I have purchased a smaller dose and a less harsh type of magnesium, which I will start next week... for now I am taking a break from them so that I can feel better. What a rough time...

That is all I have for now! I will leave you with these whimsical circus press-on nails that I made for myself yesterday! Not sure when I am going to wear them... maybe for my birthday?

the future is coming on...

♪♫ Clint Eastwood - Gorillaz

Its been over a month since David Lynch passed away. The grief has been up and down. It still feels hard to believe that he is gone. He has had such a major impact on my life. I have been honouring him in different ways since my last blog post. For starters, I re-watched the first two seasons of Twin Peaks (which I typically do every February since that is when the story begins in the show). I am going to watch the third season and movie too, but I got caught up in school work, so it won't happen until April. In addition to watching Twin Peaks, I also gave myself Twin Peaks themed nails!

After the news of his death, I had ordered myself a few items that I didn't yet have for my David Lynch collection. Prices for David Lynch items began to soar after his death, so I had to jump on a few major items from my wishlist to secure them before I couldn't afford them. Those items were: On The Air on DVD, Lynch on Lynch, and Twin Peaks: The Final Dossier. They finally all arrived and I'm thrilled! I just wish I was able to find the book Catching The Big Fish for a reasonable price. Prior to his death, it was around $40. Now the book is around $125, which is way too much in my opinion. I do need it to complete my collection of books about David's life. Hopefully I come across a cheaper one!

I also just recently ordered Hotel Room on Blu-ray. Hotel Room, like On The Air, was never released on anything other than VHS because they were both shows that were cancelled before they even reached the midway of their first season. The VHS tapes are also quite rare, and often expensive. I do own Hotel Room on VHS, which was only $30, but VHS is not a stable form of media and will degrade over time. There are a couple companies in California that convert rare media onto DVD and Blu-ray, which is where I got On The Air. I recently chose a second company (mainly because it was cheaper) to purchase Hotel Room on Blu-ray, so that I'll have a long-lasting and stable copy of this rare piece of media. I am expecting it to arrive in the mail any day now. The tracking says it has reached Canada, but it may take a day or two for the mail carrier to pick it up.

I also jumped on ordering this because of the Tarriffs that the United States government is putting on Canada. I have no idea how this will impact things like purchasing DVDs and Blu-rays, but I am just being safe. I have shifted entirely to purchasing DVDs and Blu-rays in Canada for the past month or so, but due to the rarity of Hotel Room, there was no other option aside from California to buy it from. Going forward I am limiting my purchases of DVDs and Blu-rays from the United States to only very rare ones that can't otherwise be purchased (or are highly unlikely to be purchased) here in Canada.

In general, I am avoiding purchases of items from the United States, as are many Canadians. It turns out that most items I purchased for groceries were already Canadian (with the exception of fruits that are from Mexico & South America), so I didn't need to make many changes. The only items I am having a hard time finding alternatives for are salad greens (spinach, lettuce, & argula), makeup (I use ELF, Nyx, & Maybelline mostly), and coldbrew coffee (I'm working on making my own at home). I suppose it isn't about perfection, just doing what I can. I may still need to continue buying American makeup. There are many non-American makeup brands, but I have sensitive and difficult skin, and I spent years finding the perfect products that work for me. It would be highly challenging to go through that process again. I don't wear makeup everyday anyways, so I only really purchase makeup a few times a year.

I am giving up my mini addiction to Bath and Body Works products, because they are American. Instead, I'm focusing on Lush. I already love Lush and buy products there often, so its not a hard switch at all. Not every item and store is as easy to simply label as American or non-American. I shop at Winners (the Canadian version of TJ Maxx), and I recently purchased a Juicy Couture dreamer bag. The bag said it was made somewhere other than the United States (I think it was the United Kingdom). American brand? Yes. Created outside of the United States and supports jobs of a country friendly to Canada? Yes. My rule is that if it was made outside of the United States, even if the company is American, I'll buy it (unless the company has been vocally pro-Trump, then its a hard no). I also made the exception for the Tupperware heritage collection because Tupperware has gone out of business and the heritage collection is my only chance to have Tupperware that looks just like vintage ones, but without the lead/other chemicals. I have collected six pieces so far.

I don't plan on visiting the United States either. Honestly, I'm too scared. Tourists have been detained by ICE for no good reason, and the pro-Trump crowd seems to think Canadians are evil. I loved visiting the United States and I have met many lovely Americans, but the risk has become too high for me. I'm glad I got to see New York City, Salem, Bangor, and all the other places I visisted before all this political stuff happened. My next trip is to Europe (Ireland, Scotland, England, France, & Norway), and after that, I'm focusing on Montreal, Quebec (here in Canada), and either Cuba or the Domincan Republic. In a way this is good for me, because it pushes me to travel outside of my comfort zone. The United States felt familiar and most Americans couldn't tell I was Canadian, so there wasn't a culture shock or much difficulty in figuring things out. I know that'll be different in Europe. I think It'll be especially challenging in France with the language barrier and the much higher standards for everything.

I wish the world was an easier place, and I wish people were more caring and respectful of each other. Its a shame that hatred has taken over so much. I am trying to remain optimistic, but its hard. I do hope everyone is taking care of themselves and taking breaks from the news. That is all for now!

rest in peace david lynch

♪♫ Summertime Sadness ~ Lana Del Rey

I haven't blogged in a while, and while I have lots of knew and positive updates in life, I won't be writing about them in this blog. Today one of my favorite humans passed away; David Lynch. A man who inspired me with his art, his weirdness, and his dedication to being true to himself. He was a filmmaker, an artist, a musician, and a photographer. David's had many artistic talents, and his style was completely unique. No one will ever be able to replicate what David achieved. He was a master of his own craft, an auteur. I've never experienced such heartbreak and grief from the loss of a person I had never even met. He really impacted my life in major ways and I'll always love him for that, and I'll miss him forever. Here are some photos of the pieces of David that live in my world...

Me in 2011, wearing my David Lynch shirt (I still have it). It has since gotten a bit worn out, so I have a new one.

This beautiful painting of David Lynch that my dad made for me (he is an artist).

My David Lynch enamel pin, so I can bring him with me on the go.

My Mulholland Drive tattoo, one of my favorite films ever, and one of my favorite David Lynch films.

I love Twin Peaks so much (the show David co-created with Mark Frost), that I used to sell these replica rings on Etsy. This is one I kept for myself.

My mini David Lynch figure, and all my books that are connected to David Lynch. Some of these are quite rare, and The Diary of Laura Palmer is a first edition copy!

I own most of David's work on DVD, VHS, and Blu-ray. Plus I added my Twin Peaks figure set, which my dad gave me for my birthday a few years back.
It'll take me a while to process this pain. To bring a shred of joy to ease my sorrow, I have finally ordered myself the complete series of On The Air, a show by David Lynch. Its a very rare show, due to the fact it was cancelled and has only seven episodes, and it was never officially released on VHS, DVD, or Blu-ray back in the early '90s when it aired. However, a company in California that specializes in rare media on DVD (legally) has created a DVD copy in recent years, which I have purchased. It has been on my wishlist for a while now, and is one of the only items I had left to buy for my David Lynch cinema collection. I heard good things about it, so I am excited... as excited as I can be right now.

Think I'll miss you forever, like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky...

don't tell me 'cause it hurts

♪♫ Don't Speak - No Doubt

Its been two weeks since school started and its going really well! University has a lot more reading than I thought, but a lot less assignments than I had in college. I'm enjoying online classes a lot more than I thought I would. I actually think I prefer them over in-person classes. I only have one assignment in which I have to present it in front of my class, but its only for a few minutes! Also, I'm understanding my math class! I'm definitely not going to get an A+, but I'm pretty sure I can obtain at least a C. I just need to pass it and the grade isn't important to me.

When I'm not busy with school, I'm spending my time binge watching Alias, spending time with family, or browsing my local thrift stores. I haven't found much while thrifting lately, but I did find a cute mushroom sugar bowl for $3! It doesn't have the original lid, but whoever donated it put a makeshift lid on and it works! I also bought a Merry Mushroom gravy boat from a local vintage shop for $10! My vintage mushroom collection is slowly growing. I'm hoping to find some more Merry Mushroom pieces, as well as some Arnel pieces. I love the blue mushroom utensil older I mentioned in my last blog and I'd love to see more blue mushroom pieces!


I also got to go to a wedding this past weekend. It was for a co-worker that I used to be friends with. We didn't have a fight or anything, we just went to different jobs and drifted apart. I did feel a bit awkward about going because a lot of my old co-workers were there and some of them I don't like/have had issues with. However, it ended up being a good time! It was nice to see everyone and catch up. The wedding was beautiful, the food was delicious and the conversations were pleasant. I'm glad I went! However, I did leave before the dancing started. I just hate dancing, haha.

Today is an exciting day! After classes, I am going to spend the evening with my mom. We are going to Walmart to do some shopping, going out for supper, going to the dollar store to buy candy, and then going to see Jungle Cruise at the theatre! I did lots of homework over the last two days in order to be able to take a day off from doing homework, so I will have no worries! Its nice to have an evening to relax and not think about school work. I hope everyone is doing well!

talk to me in poems and songs

♪♫ Let Me Love You Like a Woman - Lana Del Rey

Damn... its been a month and a half since I last wrote a blog! Its been a busy time lately, plus I have been overly stressed from work. I'm going on a stress leave from one of my jobs, which will be very helpful. Its for three months and it starts in a little over a week from now. Anyways, a lot has happened and since I don't feel like writing a super long blog, I'm just going to list it in bullet point form in no particular order...

• I went to visit my family for Thanksgiving. Where I live, we had no covid cases at all during the time of Thanksgiving. We have about 20 cases now though. Anyways, my aunt made a killer pumpkin spice cheesecake, I got to binge watch The Haunting of Bly Manor, and I went for a walk in the woods where I found a ton of cool mushrooms!


• I got two new tattoos; a jack-o-lantern with bats on my leg and purple/pink flowers on my forearm!

• I didn't get to do anything fun for Halloween, sadly. I was supposed to go to a party and I had a cute '20s flapper girl costume, but then I got sick with cold symptoms. I had to get tested for covid, which came back negative, but I still had to isolate for a week until I wasn't sick anymore. I did get to hangout with some friends and watch a few horror movies with treats before Halloween. On the actual day of Halloween, I relaxed in bed with a bowl of candy and had a Halloween (Michael Myers) marathon.

• I got three new houseplants; two succulents and a fern. In order from left to right their names are; Alice, Freida, and Dinah.

• I bought a cute pumpkin mask and got lots of compliments on it. I'm still wearing it, even though Halloween has ended, haha!

• I have been going to thrift stores/antique stores and keeping my eyes out for items to collect for my future house. I found a super cute vintage '70s magazine rack with mushrooms painted on it for $25, so I bought it! I haven't found anything else yet, but I'm hoping to find some vintage dishes.

• I bought Lana Del Rey's new poetry book; Violet Bent Backwards Over The Grass. I've read a few poems so far and I have been enjoying it. Its inspiring me to write poetry again. Its been a while since I wrote anything.

• We had a freak strorm here that left behind a lot of snow, but it was so warmm the next day/it rained, so it went away fairly quickly. I mean, I do live in Canada so we definitely do have a lot of snow in the winter, but not in October!

Aside from all of that, I've been working on my list of Christmas gifts to buy, I applied for a full time job very recently, I've been thinking more about the future house I want to buy/planning it all out, and I have been spending time with my family's cat. I am hoping to blog more frequently, but who knows how busy I'll be! I hope everyone is well! I am going to try and return comments! Also; I updated the "author" section finally!

i'm waking up to ash & dust

♪♫ Radioactive - Imagine Dragons

Hey! How is everyone? I feel like its been a while... again. Trying to keep up with regular blogging can be a struggle. I wish I could blog every few days like I used to! Anyways, I've been busy doing lots of fun stuff since my last blog. I went with my family to a place called Fisherman's Cove here in Nova Scotia. My family usually goes at least a few times during the summer. Its right outside of town, so its not too hard to get to. We had ice cream, looked around in the little shops, then walked along the boardwalk. My family also had a BBQ, which was great. I got to go for some nice walks, including one to the public gardens, where I seen their cacti collection. Also, I went out drinking with coworkers and it was a ton of fun! I definitely needed it. I want to do it again in September, but this time I think we'll have a house party instead of going to bars, because its much cheaper.

I also touched up the blue in my hair! I didn't dilute the blue dye as much as I did last time, so it seems to be rubbing off on everything now. I washed it twice in the 24 hours after dyeing it, but its still rubbing off on everything! Ugh! I have to lay a towel down over my pillow at night just to prevent my hair from staining it. I'm hoping a few more washes and it will stop getting on everything. I'm also thinking that in a few months, I may switch the color to purple or maybe a forest green.


I have been obsessed with iced coffee lately. A couple weeks ago, I ordered a meal from McDonald's via UberEats and they messed up my order, so I ended up getting someone's coffee. They let my keep the meal for free, so I just placed the coffee in the fridge and brought it to work that night, where I added ice cubes to it. It was amazing! I remember drinking a lot of iced coffee last summer, but I guess I had forgotten how good it is. Anyways, I wanted to make a bit of a healthier version, so I came up with my own recipe and oh my fuck is it ever good! Its 1 + 1/3 cups of hot water (or 350 ml), 2 tsps of instant coffee, 2 packets of stevia, almost a quarter cup (or 50 ml) of Silk Almond For Coffee (Hazelnut flavor). Then I just let it cool, place it in the fridge and add 3 small ice cubes when I'm ready to have it! My version is only about 90 calories (most coffees are over 200 calories). My version is also dairy free and vegan!


I've made some purchases lately; 3 DVDs and 1 VHS tape from a local thrift shop, a string of faux blue roses, a '70s coffee table book about cacti, magnetic eyelashes and a new eye mask for sleep. I'm really excited for the magnetic eyelashes. I've always been self conscience of my eyelashes and wanted bigger/darker ones. I considered getting eyelash extensions, but I figured that I'd try out magnetic eyelashes first to see if it looks good on me. Plus its 1/3 of the price of eyelash extensions. I can't wait to try them!


The only other two things are; I have a tattoo appointment in a couple weeks and I got air conditioning in my house now! I don't remember if I discussed the tattoo or not, but its going to be a David Lynch themed tattoo and I'm very excited! I will be getting many more tattoos, its all a matter of time and deciding what I want. I think I'll get my next one close to my birthday in December. Anyways, I'm going to relax for the rest of the day. I recently got into The Umbrella Academy, so I'm going to finish watching season 2, then maybe watch a horror movie. I hope everyone is well!

the way you smile that does it for me

♪♫ Sweet - Cigarettes After Sex

I'm back! I've decided to go down to part time hours at work for the rest of the summer, so I should be able to blog more! The reason for this decision is because I'm feeling really exhausted by work. I need a break. Working part time will give me 9 days between the 5 days that I work. Which is a total of at least 18 days off per month basically. I'm able to do this because my actual position is a part time position, I have just been taking extra shifts since I began working there. I simply told my boss I won't be requesting extra shifts until September and she was very understanding.

Its been 5 days since I was at work and I have 4 more days off to enjoy. I spent a couple of those days at my grandmother's house to spend time with her. I also got a haircut and I dyed half my hair blue! I am slowly going back to the old me, the true me, and I feel so great about it! I really lost myself for a long while, but dyeing my hair made a big difference! I also got lots of new clothes! I bought some at the mall and the ones from Shein arrived (sending a few items back though because I didn't like them). I'm going to start wearing my glasses more often... which I should be doing because I get headaches when I read without them. Also, I am booking a tattoo appointment! Currently discussing with the artist what I want to have done; the word "silencio" with a blue key underneath (from the movie Mulholland Drive).

Speaking of shopping... I've done a lot more shopping lately, haha. First of all; my turquoise night stand came in and I put it together. Its super cute and I love it! I have also pre-ordered Lana Del Rey's upcoming poetry/photography book called Violet Bent Backwards Over The Grass which comes out at the end of September. Other things I have recently bought (aside from the clothing mentioned earlier) are; a pansexual pride flag, House of the Devil on DVD, coasters, tacs (to put more decorations up on my walls), and a velvet hairband.

I leave for my mini cottage vacation on Monday and I'm super excited! I bought all the food today and I have books, a face mask and a shower bomb from Lush all ready to go as well! Aside from that, I'm really unsure what I want to do when I'm there. I'm thinking I should go on a few walks because its close to a lake and maybe watch some movies too. Its going to be so nice to get away from this house. I need a little break... actually I need a long one, but I'm waiting for the pandemic to end to do that... and hopefully it'll take place in Hawaii, haha. I still have my Hawaii money waiting for when I'm able to go!

I hope everyone is well. Depending on where you live, the pandemic may or may not be severe. Where I live, there are only a couple active cases. A lot of restrictions have been lifted, allowing everyone to enjoy the summer! If you're in a place where its not going well, I hope things improve quickly and you are able to enjoy at least a little bit of the summer. I wish good health for everyone as well!

the sun was setting in the west

♪♫ Farewell to Nova Scotia - Aselin Debison

I'm back! The last while has been really rough and I'm not doing well at all. I'll get to that in a bit, but first I'll talk about what has happened since my last blog, starting with my break up; we are still broken up. There isn't really any news on this, except that I'm feeling better about it, but still grieving the loss. The quarantine is making things a lot harder. I think it will take me a lot longer to get over it...

The day after my last blog, I celebrated Easter with my roommates. They insisted on making the dinner themselves, so I just made the stuffing. It was delicious! I also had a little chocolate bunny for dessert. I do wish that I could have celebrated with family though.


Pretty much everything that I ordered from my last blog has arrived! Everything is perfect, but my favorite thing is the color changing lamp/bluetooth speaker. Its so much fun to watch! Speaking of ordering... I ordered more stuff online since my last blog; a quilt set, flannel sheets, a fleece blanket, two pillows, two Rupi Kaur poetry books, the complete collection of Robert Frost's poetry, a book of poetry by Atticus, The Great War on DVD and an East Coast Strong shirt.


All the proceeds from the shirt go to the families of the victims from the mass shooting that occurred in my home province (Nova Scotia) this past weekend. We never experience violence like this, so it has been really hard on everyone. You may or may not have heard the full story, but the shooter had a replica police car and uniform, which he used to senselessly murder 22 innocent people over the span of 12 hours. He was shot dead by police at the very end. He was headed for where I live when the police caught up to him.

On a happier note; I got some new plants! Most of them are fake, haha. I went to the dollar store for some essential stuff, so I also bought some fake plants and a notebook to cheer myself up. I bought myself a real plant when I went to the grocery store; a cute little cactus that I've named Frank. I also wrote up a daily self care list to help keep me in a routine/keep me healthy. I'm going to update it in a few days to include some more stuff, but I think its been really helpful so far! I hope it makes a difference.


Also here is a recent selfie that I took. I've started doing winged eyeliner again just to make myself feel a little prettier. I definitely need a haircut though (my bangs are long & you can't see the rest of my hair... but its halfway down my back now), haha...


Another happy thing that happened lately; I noticed that Terry O'Quinn, who is one of my favorite actors, got a Cameo account. Cameo is a essentially a site where celebrities will send you a personalized video in exchange for you donating to charity. As soon as I seen it, I knew I had to do it! Terry played John Locke (my favorite character) on my favorite show Lost and I was supposed to go to a Lost con next month in Hawaii. I felt like even though this doesn't fully make up for it, it would be a nice way to have something Lost-themed that would make me feel a little better about missing my trip. He sent me my video today and it made my entire week! Anytime I ever feel sad for the rest of my life, I'm going to watch this video. ♥️


That's all for now. I hope everyone is well! I will try to return comments asap!