Sunday, September 22, 2013

prayed like a martyr dusk 'til dawn

♪♫ Jambi - Tool

As you can clearly see; I put a new layout up! I was getting so tired of my old layout. I had to change it. So I went for an autumn theme. The header picture was taken by me. I know its not professional looking, but its personal and I really like it. The background was provided by Blogger, as well as the template (but I modified the fuck out of it). I even got a little pumpkin light in the picture to represent Halloween. I think I succeeded. But I'd love to hear other people's opinions. Let me know what you think! :)

So Thursday was awesome, like it usually is. I woke up to a package on my nightstand. It turned out to be the skeleton hand hair clip that I ordered a few weeks ago. Its actually a lot better quality than I pictured. And it was only 99¢! It especially looks good in my blue/turquoise hair! Also, I'm really frustrated by the fact my hair is a different color in every picture. Ahhh. Why can't it just look like the color it actually is!?


I began working on my layout. But my stomach was feeling kinda upset, so I took some medication. Then I got ready and went to meet up with BJ and Kara at 7:30 pm, which is becoming a weekly thing now. Every Thursday at 7:30 pm, we hangout at BJ's house and play games (its awesome ^_^). Anyways, we all drank and played Trivial Pursuit. Kara had Long Island Iced Tea, and BJ and I had whiskey. I got a little too drunk though. Whiskey is my favorite alcohol, but it didn't treat me very well. I felt kinda nauseous near the end of the night.


I got a drive home from BJ's mom and I thought I was gonna puke the entire time. Even though I felt really sick, I knew that I needed to eat something. But I didn't have many options at home, so I got BJ's mom to stop by Subway for me. BJ got a sub, even though he said he didn't want one (like he does every time :P). I waited until I got home, then I ate my Subway in bed and watched some of the fourth season of Supernatural. I really like classic Supernatural more than new Supernatural. Especially season two and three. Oh and I also worked on my layout some more. But I wasn't very inspired and I became quite frustrated with it. -_-

My mom woke me up on Friday and asked me if I wanted to go out for dinner (yeah...I woke up around suppertime -_-). But I was feeling really sick. Not sure if it was a hangover or if I ate something that didn't agree with me. Either way, I spent a while in bed. And I felt even worse when I got an anonymous message on Ask.fm saying "your writing is mediocre at best" and I pretended that I didn't care, but it really hurt me. Because of my mental issues, I don't handle that sorta thing really well. Its gonna bother me for weeks. A couple people made me feel a bit better, but it'll take awhile for me to fully recover. I know it sounds so silly...but I can't help it. :(

A couple hours later, I ended up hanging out with my ex-boyfriend. He messaged me and asked if I wanted to chill for a little while before he had to go meet up with some people. I reluctantly agreed. We sat in the square around the corner from my house for awhile and walked around to random places. It was pretty uncomfortable. He complained a lot and made fun of me a little bit. He has always been a huge douchebag. I thought he had changed, but he is pretty much the same. Ugh. Luckily I didn't have to hangout with him for as long as I thought I would. He walked me to Julius, then left to catch a bus. I got a slice of pizza and a can of Coke for my dinner, then went home. I mostly spent my night working on my layout again. And I couldn't sleep. My insomnia was especially bad that night.

Since my insomnia was so bad the night before, I woke up late on Saturday. But I got ready just in time for Kat to pick me up (I even had enough time to take an awesome picture of myself :D). She went through the McDonald's drive-thru for me so that I could get junior chickens and Coke (I usually never eat food from McDonald's). Then I went to her house and chilled with her and Missy for a while. We were supposed to watch Insidious, but we were too distracted by talking and playing games on our electronic devices. It was a pretty awesome time. :3


Kat drove Missy home, then I tagged along when she went to pick up Adam (her boyfriend) from work. We went into the pawn shop next to his work and he ended up buying Kat a ring. It was so cute. Then they ordered food to go from the restaurant across the street. So we had to wait around for a little while. But I didn't mind. I don't get to see them very often anyways. She drove me home after that. And it was pretty funny. Adam gave me some garlic fingers, then somehow we ended up talking about anal sex. So when I got out of the car, I said "thanks for the drive, the garlic fingers and the weird conversation about anal". It was pretty hilarious. xD

I accomplished so much that night. I finished my layout, starting working on a Halloween themed layout, cleaned and organized my entire room (it was quite bad - there was junk piled everywhere). I posted some of my awards, achievements and inspirational pictures on my wall to keep me motivated and confident. And I began drawing my favorite quote in bubble letters. I didn't have time to finish it though. I was too exhausted (I didn't finish everything until 6:30 am). I also found some Halloween decorations, so I put them on display (I know its kinda early - but Halloween is my favorite holiday). ^_^


Today I forced myself to wake up early, even though I was beyond exhausted. I finished the drawing of my favorite quote in bubble letters. It took a lot longer than I thought it would, but it turned out pretty awesome. Its colorful and I traced around the letters with a black pencil to make them pop out more. Anyways, its been raining most of the day. I always feel really depressed when it rains, so I went to the store and got junk food to cheer myself up; cheesies and three cans of pop (cola, cream soda & root beer). Plus I already had some candy corn. So I munched out while I tried to beat my writer's block. It took an hour or more, but I finally pulled through and managed to finish the rough draft of chapter nine for my story. I'm hoping to have five more chapters out in the next few weeks. But I'm gonna be spending more time on editing. I want it to be the best, so I gotta put a lot of effort into it. ;D


Thats all for now. I'll blog again in a few days. I'm actually trying to write blogs as often as possible. Its all because my OCD makes me write very long and detailed blogs. It drives me nuts. Ahhh. -_-

Edit (Monday, September 23rd at 3:50 am): I can't sleep, so I'm watching Supernatural once again. I'm actually watching "Monster Movie", which is pretty much my favorite episode of Supernatural. I love it because it parodies classic horror movies/monsters (which I'm a huge fan of), and also because its in black and white (which I really love). I wish they did more classic horror parodies. :3

1 comment:

  1. Okay, seriously? I adore the new theme for your blog, and I adore the shit out of your new hair color! :3 I LOVE dying my hair all different colors.... orange or blue would be my two favorite colors! ^_^ I saw your Halloween decorations on Instagram earlier, definitely awesome stuff right there ;D I love this time of year... it's beautiful with the already obvious autumn feeling - the crisp air, sweat shirts, candy corn, all that fun stuff but with Halloween included it just tops off the greatness :)

    I totally dig the idea of hanging up inspirational quotes and poetry on your walls. That's awesome, I'll probably be doing the same with my art.

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