♪♫ How Lucky - John Prine
I finally got chapter seven and eight of my story published! It took so long to write and edit them. I wasn't done until early in the morning. I hope ya'll enjoy reading them! And if you haven't heard of my story and are interested in reading it...
Click here for my story!
I mentioned this in my last blog, but people probably didn't see it; I wrote a poem and a post about my childhood memories on my side blog. I'd love to hear feedback on the poem. Its the first one I've written in years. I always think my writing sucks. I'm my own worst critic. And you don't have to read the post about my childhood memories. But if you do, leave a comment about some of your childhood memories! I'd love to hear them! :)
Click here for my poem!
Click here for my post!
Oh, and here is two pictures that I uploaded onto Instagram last night. The first one is my mother and my cat. It was taken a few days ago, I just forgot about it until last night. And the second one is obviously me. I took a break from editing my story and took a selfie. :P
Today started out horribly. I woke up to my mom standing over me with a letter from the government, telling me that I didn't get permanent disability. I was really pissed that she read my mail, so I yelled at her. She left, then I cried for a while. I was devastated. Now when I move out, I'm gonna have to live off of $400 a month (besides my rent). I'll have $50 extra every month. I won't even be able to afford internet. So many horrible thoughts went through my mind. My anxiety level was pretty high and I was also feeling depressed on top of that. :'(
BJ came to see me a couple hours later. We went to the bank so that I could deposit money into my savings account and take out money from my chequing account. I got $1300 saved up so far (my goal is $4500), and $25 for buying groceries tomorrow. From there, we went to the store so that he could buy cigarettes for us. Yeah...so we aren't doing well with that whole "quitting smoking" thing...
Jungle Jim's was our next stop. He offered to buy me red velvet cheesecake to cheer me up, but we both ended up getting meals first. I didn't finish mine though. But we still got the red velvet cheesecake. Yum! Our unexpected date made me feel a bit better. Especially because he was giving me ideas for my story. ^_^
We sat down on a bench down the road from the restaurant afterwards. It was wet, because it rained on and off all day. But BJ let me use his jacket to sit on (how did I ever find a man who is so wonderful!?). We had a few cigarettes and a funny conversation, but he had to leave early. His dad needed him to do something. Not sure what it was, but we walked back to my house and his dad picked him up a few minutes later.
When I got inside, I had a long conversation with my mother and my grandmother. I'm feeling a lot better now. Still disappointed, but not as anxious and depressed. I find it a little ironic that I had a devastating thing happen to me on Friday the 13th. I'm not superstitious, but its pretty weird...
I'm gonna take some melatonin and go to sleep early tonight. I might have to go to the clinic tomorrow. My right ear is in pain, it feels clogged and I can barely hear out of it. I'm hoping it'll just go away, because I really hate going to the clinic. Its so far out of the way and my social anxiety acts up. -_-
I finally got chapter seven and eight of my story published! It took so long to write and edit them. I wasn't done until early in the morning. I hope ya'll enjoy reading them! And if you haven't heard of my story and are interested in reading it...
I mentioned this in my last blog, but people probably didn't see it; I wrote a poem and a post about my childhood memories on my side blog. I'd love to hear feedback on the poem. Its the first one I've written in years. I always think my writing sucks. I'm my own worst critic. And you don't have to read the post about my childhood memories. But if you do, leave a comment about some of your childhood memories! I'd love to hear them! :)
Click here for my post!
Oh, and here is two pictures that I uploaded onto Instagram last night. The first one is my mother and my cat. It was taken a few days ago, I just forgot about it until last night. And the second one is obviously me. I took a break from editing my story and took a selfie. :P
Today started out horribly. I woke up to my mom standing over me with a letter from the government, telling me that I didn't get permanent disability. I was really pissed that she read my mail, so I yelled at her. She left, then I cried for a while. I was devastated. Now when I move out, I'm gonna have to live off of $400 a month (besides my rent). I'll have $50 extra every month. I won't even be able to afford internet. So many horrible thoughts went through my mind. My anxiety level was pretty high and I was also feeling depressed on top of that. :'(
BJ came to see me a couple hours later. We went to the bank so that I could deposit money into my savings account and take out money from my chequing account. I got $1300 saved up so far (my goal is $4500), and $25 for buying groceries tomorrow. From there, we went to the store so that he could buy cigarettes for us. Yeah...so we aren't doing well with that whole "quitting smoking" thing...
Jungle Jim's was our next stop. He offered to buy me red velvet cheesecake to cheer me up, but we both ended up getting meals first. I didn't finish mine though. But we still got the red velvet cheesecake. Yum! Our unexpected date made me feel a bit better. Especially because he was giving me ideas for my story. ^_^
We sat down on a bench down the road from the restaurant afterwards. It was wet, because it rained on and off all day. But BJ let me use his jacket to sit on (how did I ever find a man who is so wonderful!?). We had a few cigarettes and a funny conversation, but he had to leave early. His dad needed him to do something. Not sure what it was, but we walked back to my house and his dad picked him up a few minutes later.
When I got inside, I had a long conversation with my mother and my grandmother. I'm feeling a lot better now. Still disappointed, but not as anxious and depressed. I find it a little ironic that I had a devastating thing happen to me on Friday the 13th. I'm not superstitious, but its pretty weird...
I'm gonna take some melatonin and go to sleep early tonight. I might have to go to the clinic tomorrow. My right ear is in pain, it feels clogged and I can barely hear out of it. I'm hoping it'll just go away, because I really hate going to the clinic. Its so far out of the way and my social anxiety acts up. -_-
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