♪♫ Scar Tissue - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Once again, its been a while. Life in college is chaotic and time consuming. I'm not sure where to start... I got grad photos done! I just have to order them now. Speaking of school... things are going well. We don't have many assignments now that we are close to the end. My internship starts in a month and I've been accepted to the youth shelter once again! I hope they hire me once my internship is done! Its kinda surreal that I'm going to be graduating in a few months. I never thought I would make it. I feel so accomplished!
My boyfriend and I celebrated Valentines this past weekend. Due to being busy and me having a rough patch with anxiety, we weren't able to find the time. Over a week ago, when we originally planned to have Valentines day, I had a massive panic attack and took some anger out on him via text. That caused a few days of upset for both of us. I have never behaved that way towards him before, so it was a shock to him. I explained that people don't think rationally during panic attacks and that I would warn him next time, so that I could deal with it on my own and he wouldn't be impacted by it. Its not fair for him to have to deal with that.
Anyways, for the celebration we had this past weekend, the first thing we did was exchange gifts. I gave him a card that said "I love you a waffle lot" with a picture of a waffle on it and a heart shaped box of mini Reese cups. Waffles are an inside joke for us. He gave me a poem he wrote on a piece of paper that he decorated with hearts and glitter, a heart shaped box of Turtles and a used 3DS with Mario Kart 7. I was so stunned. I nearly cried. I have never gotten such amazing gifts from a boyfriend before. Especially the poem. That is my favorite gift of all! He is so amazing. I feel so lucky!
After that, I made him dinner (pasta with tomato sauce, caesar salad & garlic bread), we watched Predator 3 and played some video games. Sadly I began feeling sick that night and barely slept. I believe that was the beginning of the strep throat that I'm currently dealing with. I had to go to the hospital yesterday. Ugh. Thankfully I got medication and a note for school, so I'm recovering now. Yay! Sadly, I have to go to school tomorrow. Blah. Anyways, back on topic... it was lovely! I really enjoyed it. It kinda felt like I was falling in love with him all over again and I could tell he was more affectionate than usual. I think that is the beautiful thing about love. You don't just fall in love with someone once. You continue to fall in love with them over and over again.
I move back home in a month, so we will have to have a long distance relationship for probably a couple years. However, we are only an hour away from each other, so we can visit each other at least three times a month. I think it will be fine. I will miss him a lot, but I know that one day we will live together and it will have been worth the wait. Its crazy to think about how much my life has changed. I was a homeless high school dropout with a drinking problem and criminal friends. Now I'm a sober college student that has an amazingly supportive boyfriend. I'm so happy!
That is it for now!
Once again, its been a while. Life in college is chaotic and time consuming. I'm not sure where to start... I got grad photos done! I just have to order them now. Speaking of school... things are going well. We don't have many assignments now that we are close to the end. My internship starts in a month and I've been accepted to the youth shelter once again! I hope they hire me once my internship is done! Its kinda surreal that I'm going to be graduating in a few months. I never thought I would make it. I feel so accomplished!
My boyfriend and I celebrated Valentines this past weekend. Due to being busy and me having a rough patch with anxiety, we weren't able to find the time. Over a week ago, when we originally planned to have Valentines day, I had a massive panic attack and took some anger out on him via text. That caused a few days of upset for both of us. I have never behaved that way towards him before, so it was a shock to him. I explained that people don't think rationally during panic attacks and that I would warn him next time, so that I could deal with it on my own and he wouldn't be impacted by it. Its not fair for him to have to deal with that.
Anyways, for the celebration we had this past weekend, the first thing we did was exchange gifts. I gave him a card that said "I love you a waffle lot" with a picture of a waffle on it and a heart shaped box of mini Reese cups. Waffles are an inside joke for us. He gave me a poem he wrote on a piece of paper that he decorated with hearts and glitter, a heart shaped box of Turtles and a used 3DS with Mario Kart 7. I was so stunned. I nearly cried. I have never gotten such amazing gifts from a boyfriend before. Especially the poem. That is my favorite gift of all! He is so amazing. I feel so lucky!
After that, I made him dinner (pasta with tomato sauce, caesar salad & garlic bread), we watched Predator 3 and played some video games. Sadly I began feeling sick that night and barely slept. I believe that was the beginning of the strep throat that I'm currently dealing with. I had to go to the hospital yesterday. Ugh. Thankfully I got medication and a note for school, so I'm recovering now. Yay! Sadly, I have to go to school tomorrow. Blah. Anyways, back on topic... it was lovely! I really enjoyed it. It kinda felt like I was falling in love with him all over again and I could tell he was more affectionate than usual. I think that is the beautiful thing about love. You don't just fall in love with someone once. You continue to fall in love with them over and over again.
I move back home in a month, so we will have to have a long distance relationship for probably a couple years. However, we are only an hour away from each other, so we can visit each other at least three times a month. I think it will be fine. I will miss him a lot, but I know that one day we will live together and it will have been worth the wait. Its crazy to think about how much my life has changed. I was a homeless high school dropout with a drinking problem and criminal friends. Now I'm a sober college student that has an amazingly supportive boyfriend. I'm so happy!
That is it for now!
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