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I'm not really one for noticing things right away. Especially lately...since I began my little Etsy shop...I've been quite busy. I've barely written any blogs, and I've barely commented on other people's blogs. But I have a few people that I've met online, that I like to send cards for Christmas. And naturally, being me, I never write anything down. When I need someone's address, I just ask them via Facebook or Email. Yes, all of this is leading up to a bit of a story...
Back in November I was asking a few people for their addresses on Facebook. However, one person whose address I needed...was not on Facebook. Like their profile disappeared. It was odd. But I suppose that people sometimes deactivate their Facebook, so I didn't think much of it. I emailed them instead. But I got no answer. So I emailed again. And still nothing. Huh. It was becoming very strange. I couldn't find any of their social networking sites that I followed. They all seemed to have disappeared. But of course, I always assume that there must be a good explanation. Sometimes people get sick of shit and delete everything. I've been there...
I never once thought that maybe the person had actually intentionally blocked me. Well...until a few weeks ago. The thought started creeping around and I wondered why they would do that. I had never had an argument with them. Never been rude or mean. Hell, maybe I suck at talking to people regularly...but I do that with pretty much everyone. I'm a closed in person. A hermit. But that can't be the reason. Why would someone get mad about that? But I guess the reason behind it doesn't matter at all. Because the person thought so little of our friendship that they didn't even bother to talk to me about it. They didn't attempt to work it out. They just cut me out. Like I didn't even matter to begin with. Yeah, that is pretty hurtful...
So what I've gathered from this is that; I never did anything wrong, and that person...sadly...is not a good person. And it sucks that it took me months to figure it out, because I didn't wanna believe that someone would actually be that shitty to another person. I'm naive, clearly. But everything happens for a reason. Maybe this happened to teach me not to so easily let people into my life. Be more aware that people like that do exist and I have to keep myself safe...
I guess its true that people can only hurt you if you care about them to begin with. What a twisted irony...
Update: I received a comment on my blog, which I chose not to publish. It was somewhat confusing. I guess I'm being childish and I should grow up for...well I'm a little unclear about that. She mentioned my friend contacting her. I don't control what other people do. Nor do I condone it. The reason I was given for our friendship ending was laughable. From what I remember, it was barely a one minute conversation about something. Which, somehow, led to her believing that I was judging her...I...don't even know how she gathered that from what I said. I'm not a judgmental person. And I certainly never have drama "like a high school kid". This is the only silly drama I've had in a long time. And she brought up the fact that she is older. Like it was a magical phrase that made her more mature somehow. Which clearly isn't true. Her blog is drama, drama, and more drama. Always bitching about everything, then claiming to be positive. Heh. Maybe I'm being a bit immature. No one is perfect. We all lash out sometimes. But here is a question; does she think its mature to leave a comment on my blog?
Trust me when I say that I know how certain mental disorders work. How people act. I have quite a few myself. This person suffers from a personality disorder. No matter what they say about it being gone, its not. That is something I've kept to myself. I always encourage people getting better, even if they haven't improved much at all. The point I'm getting at is this person has a pretty bad case of this disorder. Always getting angry for reasons that are silly. And cutting people out for no good reason. Its a scary switch back and forth between the positive moments the person has. Black and white. That is all the person sees. And black is the usual. I understand that a blog is a place to vent your feelings...but if someone has that many angry feelings...that requires help beyond writing can help.
If she feels so easily torn down and attacked by everyone, maybe its not them. Maybe its her. No, actually it is her. She takes it too personal. She thinks people just wanna hurt her all the time. Which is probably what made it easy for her to hate me over the literal most stupid thing I have ever heard. If its that easy to cut me out, I'm sure its happened to tons more people. Hell, I'd be surprised if she had an actual friend at this point. Man, I'm being harsh. Why? That is what happens when you hurt people. They fire back.
For someone of your age, which is mature in your eyes, you sure enjoy treating people like shit and writing blogs about your drama (involving people who read your blog), somehow not expecting it to slap you in the face. You're maturity badge has been revoked. And should have never been given to you, honestly. You're not positive. And you'll never be. Your nature is pessimistic. But I'm sure somehow it was screwed into your head that you need to portray an image of happiness and rainbows, along with tie dye clothes and weed. Yeah man. Such fake. Much lies. 10/10 bad hippie. Get in line with the other wannabes. Pretending to be something, doesn't make it happen.
You're not a victim. Maybe at point you were, and now you just assume that you can do no wrong and that everyone is an enemy. I don't know. But you sure act like everything is out to get you. Like you never provoke anyone to verbally bitch slap you. I'm not buying that act. But by all means, wear all the peace signs and pentagrams that you want. Its not fooling anyone. But go ahead anyways.
Thanks for trying, but you lose. Have fun typing LOL when mentioning it and pretending like it doesn't bother you. Maybe it fools some of the poor people that you've pretended to be friends with. And maybe thats a comfort to you...knowing that some people actually buy your bullshit.
Its interesting that you told me to leave you alone when I left one comment on your blog, that had nothing to do with this. It was a Merry Christmas, which I take back. How about you leave me alone? Stop writing cryptic blogs that are probably referring to me? Its creepy, dude. Please get help. You need it.
I'm not really one for noticing things right away. Especially lately...since I began my little Etsy shop...I've been quite busy. I've barely written any blogs, and I've barely commented on other people's blogs. But I have a few people that I've met online, that I like to send cards for Christmas. And naturally, being me, I never write anything down. When I need someone's address, I just ask them via Facebook or Email. Yes, all of this is leading up to a bit of a story...
Back in November I was asking a few people for their addresses on Facebook. However, one person whose address I needed...was not on Facebook. Like their profile disappeared. It was odd. But I suppose that people sometimes deactivate their Facebook, so I didn't think much of it. I emailed them instead. But I got no answer. So I emailed again. And still nothing. Huh. It was becoming very strange. I couldn't find any of their social networking sites that I followed. They all seemed to have disappeared. But of course, I always assume that there must be a good explanation. Sometimes people get sick of shit and delete everything. I've been there...
I never once thought that maybe the person had actually intentionally blocked me. Well...until a few weeks ago. The thought started creeping around and I wondered why they would do that. I had never had an argument with them. Never been rude or mean. Hell, maybe I suck at talking to people regularly...but I do that with pretty much everyone. I'm a closed in person. A hermit. But that can't be the reason. Why would someone get mad about that? But I guess the reason behind it doesn't matter at all. Because the person thought so little of our friendship that they didn't even bother to talk to me about it. They didn't attempt to work it out. They just cut me out. Like I didn't even matter to begin with. Yeah, that is pretty hurtful...
So what I've gathered from this is that; I never did anything wrong, and that person...sadly...is not a good person. And it sucks that it took me months to figure it out, because I didn't wanna believe that someone would actually be that shitty to another person. I'm naive, clearly. But everything happens for a reason. Maybe this happened to teach me not to so easily let people into my life. Be more aware that people like that do exist and I have to keep myself safe...
I guess its true that people can only hurt you if you care about them to begin with. What a twisted irony...
Update: I received a comment on my blog, which I chose not to publish. It was somewhat confusing. I guess I'm being childish and I should grow up for...well I'm a little unclear about that. She mentioned my friend contacting her. I don't control what other people do. Nor do I condone it. The reason I was given for our friendship ending was laughable. From what I remember, it was barely a one minute conversation about something. Which, somehow, led to her believing that I was judging her...I...don't even know how she gathered that from what I said. I'm not a judgmental person. And I certainly never have drama "like a high school kid". This is the only silly drama I've had in a long time. And she brought up the fact that she is older. Like it was a magical phrase that made her more mature somehow. Which clearly isn't true. Her blog is drama, drama, and more drama. Always bitching about everything, then claiming to be positive. Heh. Maybe I'm being a bit immature. No one is perfect. We all lash out sometimes. But here is a question; does she think its mature to leave a comment on my blog?
Trust me when I say that I know how certain mental disorders work. How people act. I have quite a few myself. This person suffers from a personality disorder. No matter what they say about it being gone, its not. That is something I've kept to myself. I always encourage people getting better, even if they haven't improved much at all. The point I'm getting at is this person has a pretty bad case of this disorder. Always getting angry for reasons that are silly. And cutting people out for no good reason. Its a scary switch back and forth between the positive moments the person has. Black and white. That is all the person sees. And black is the usual. I understand that a blog is a place to vent your feelings...but if someone has that many angry feelings...that requires help beyond writing can help.
If she feels so easily torn down and attacked by everyone, maybe its not them. Maybe its her. No, actually it is her. She takes it too personal. She thinks people just wanna hurt her all the time. Which is probably what made it easy for her to hate me over the literal most stupid thing I have ever heard. If its that easy to cut me out, I'm sure its happened to tons more people. Hell, I'd be surprised if she had an actual friend at this point. Man, I'm being harsh. Why? That is what happens when you hurt people. They fire back.
For someone of your age, which is mature in your eyes, you sure enjoy treating people like shit and writing blogs about your drama (involving people who read your blog), somehow not expecting it to slap you in the face. You're maturity badge has been revoked. And should have never been given to you, honestly. You're not positive. And you'll never be. Your nature is pessimistic. But I'm sure somehow it was screwed into your head that you need to portray an image of happiness and rainbows, along with tie dye clothes and weed. Yeah man. Such fake. Much lies. 10/10 bad hippie. Get in line with the other wannabes. Pretending to be something, doesn't make it happen.
You're not a victim. Maybe at point you were, and now you just assume that you can do no wrong and that everyone is an enemy. I don't know. But you sure act like everything is out to get you. Like you never provoke anyone to verbally bitch slap you. I'm not buying that act. But by all means, wear all the peace signs and pentagrams that you want. Its not fooling anyone. But go ahead anyways.
Thanks for trying, but you lose. Have fun typing LOL when mentioning it and pretending like it doesn't bother you. Maybe it fools some of the poor people that you've pretended to be friends with. And maybe thats a comfort to you...knowing that some people actually buy your bullshit.
Its interesting that you told me to leave you alone when I left one comment on your blog, that had nothing to do with this. It was a Merry Christmas, which I take back. How about you leave me alone? Stop writing cryptic blogs that are probably referring to me? Its creepy, dude. Please get help. You need it.
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