♪♫ Sometimes (I Wish) - City And Colour
I apologize for not writing blogs lately. Plus not commenting on my friend's blogs, and/or keeping in touch. I've been suffering through some severe depression. As most people know, I was diagnosed with clinical depression and I'm taking medication for it. But its not really helping me a whole lot. So I'm at my grandmother's right now. For a couple weeks. Hopefully it will help me feel better. I'm sick of feeling this way. :(
The past few days have been especially very hard. I feel weighed down by depression and I've had so many panic attacks...ugh. I keep having to take Ativan. I just had one earlier. I was awful. But after I calmed down; I drank some tea, wrote some poetry and listened to music...which helped me a little bit. I'm trying to force myself to do things. And its really hard. I just don't feel like doing anything at all...
I'm gonna be publishing all the blogs that I wrote for the past couple months...soon. I need to edit them and whatnot. But they'll all be published soon enough. And I'll finish my new layout. I still have things I want to add to it. Especially new pages. I'm thinking of adding one for my loved ones. What do ya'll think of it so far? :)
If I don't write another blog for a little while...please just understand that its because I'm going through a hard time. And I feel very alone going through this hard time...which is making things worse. Living with these mental disorders that I have...well...its just brutal. :'(
Edit at 10:15 pm: I ended up going out earlier with everyone. And I bought some stuff for myself; face cleaning products (which I really needed) and Jolly Rancher sour gummes (which I haven't had since middle school). It cheered me up. Then I got home and decided to do an Alice in Wonderland inspired photoshoot by myself...but it ended up making me feel more depressed. Ugh. :/
I'm not Alice, and this isn't Wonderland.
I apologize for not writing blogs lately. Plus not commenting on my friend's blogs, and/or keeping in touch. I've been suffering through some severe depression. As most people know, I was diagnosed with clinical depression and I'm taking medication for it. But its not really helping me a whole lot. So I'm at my grandmother's right now. For a couple weeks. Hopefully it will help me feel better. I'm sick of feeling this way. :(
The past few days have been especially very hard. I feel weighed down by depression and I've had so many panic attacks...ugh. I keep having to take Ativan. I just had one earlier. I was awful. But after I calmed down; I drank some tea, wrote some poetry and listened to music...which helped me a little bit. I'm trying to force myself to do things. And its really hard. I just don't feel like doing anything at all...
I'm gonna be publishing all the blogs that I wrote for the past couple months...soon. I need to edit them and whatnot. But they'll all be published soon enough. And I'll finish my new layout. I still have things I want to add to it. Especially new pages. I'm thinking of adding one for my loved ones. What do ya'll think of it so far? :)
If I don't write another blog for a little while...please just understand that its because I'm going through a hard time. And I feel very alone going through this hard time...which is making things worse. Living with these mental disorders that I have...well...its just brutal. :'(
Edit at 10:15 pm: I ended up going out earlier with everyone. And I bought some stuff for myself; face cleaning products (which I really needed) and Jolly Rancher sour gummes (which I haven't had since middle school). It cheered me up. Then I got home and decided to do an Alice in Wonderland inspired photoshoot by myself...but it ended up making me feel more depressed. Ugh. :/
I'm not Alice, and this isn't Wonderland.
Awe love, I know exactly how horribly depression can have an impact on blogging and not getting back to people's comments. It happens and can happen unexpectedly! I hope you pull through better now that you're staying at your grandma's and everything starts going more smoothly for you <3 You deserve to feel better! :)
ReplyDeleteI like those pictures you posted of you and the bunny ears :3 So cute ^_^
You know that no matter what you can text or message me! <3
ReplyDeleteI wish I could be there. I miss home more then you can imagine! You have yet to send me a preview of the poetry, have you posted it on the other page yet?!