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My date on Friday night went really well. Matt was all dressed up. And looking hot I should add. He took me to a diner that reminds me of the Double R Diner from Twin Peaks. It was lovely. Then we went to another place for dessert; he got a brownie sundae and I got red velvet cheesecake. Yum! And somehow we ended up talking about serial killers and psychopaths. LOL, typical me on a date. xD
So I invited him back to my house after that, since my mum was at work and my step dad is deaf and sleeping. We cuddled for most of the night, watched TV and Eraserhead. Which Matt thought was really weird. And we both heard my step dad leaving for work around 4:30 am. I forgot he had to work. Fuck. But he didn't come in my room. So Matt and I started getting intimate. It was amazing. And then he left before my mum came home from work. Which was around 6:30 am. Since I was already awake, I decided to watch Supernatural.
My mum came home and immediately began screaming. Apparently my step dad had texted her and told her that some guy's shoes were in the hallway. So she figured out that Matt was here for the night. But me being stupid...I tried to lie. I said I had no clue what she was talking about. Which didn't help. She hit me really hard in the face. Then she grounded me and told me that no one is allowed to come here ever again. Except for my birthday. Does that make any fucking sense!? I'm almost twenty-one. I'm an adult! I'm so fucking mad. But if I don't listen to her, she is gonna kick me out. I fell asleep crying and feeling like complete shit. :'(
I woke up late yesterday. No surprise. Considering I was up until 7:30 am the night before. But yeah...I spent hours too scared to leave my room. I was afraid of how my mum was gonna act. She mostly ignored me. But she also took my door knob away, decided to think of a better punishment in the new year and get my step dad to check on me at night to make sure I'm alone in my room. I'm in fucking hell. At least my grandmother cheered me up a little bit.
Today hasn't been much better. My step dad wants to kick me out because I said he smells bad. So fucking what!? My mum says that to him all the time! Plus he has called me horrible names so many times and never apologized. He is a complete piece of shit. And my mum spoke to me briefly. Just to tell me what I'm a liar and manipulator. That I'm trying to get people against her, apparently. That she doesn't care if I stop speaking with her forever. And that I only use men for their money. What a fucking cunt. I'm seriously on the verge on committing suicide right now. I can't leave my house, talk to anyone and I've got a drawer filled with pills.
My date on Friday night went really well. Matt was all dressed up. And looking hot I should add. He took me to a diner that reminds me of the Double R Diner from Twin Peaks. It was lovely. Then we went to another place for dessert; he got a brownie sundae and I got red velvet cheesecake. Yum! And somehow we ended up talking about serial killers and psychopaths. LOL, typical me on a date. xD
So I invited him back to my house after that, since my mum was at work and my step dad is deaf and sleeping. We cuddled for most of the night, watched TV and Eraserhead. Which Matt thought was really weird. And we both heard my step dad leaving for work around 4:30 am. I forgot he had to work. Fuck. But he didn't come in my room. So Matt and I started getting intimate. It was amazing. And then he left before my mum came home from work. Which was around 6:30 am. Since I was already awake, I decided to watch Supernatural.
My mum came home and immediately began screaming. Apparently my step dad had texted her and told her that some guy's shoes were in the hallway. So she figured out that Matt was here for the night. But me being stupid...I tried to lie. I said I had no clue what she was talking about. Which didn't help. She hit me really hard in the face. Then she grounded me and told me that no one is allowed to come here ever again. Except for my birthday. Does that make any fucking sense!? I'm almost twenty-one. I'm an adult! I'm so fucking mad. But if I don't listen to her, she is gonna kick me out. I fell asleep crying and feeling like complete shit. :'(
I woke up late yesterday. No surprise. Considering I was up until 7:30 am the night before. But yeah...I spent hours too scared to leave my room. I was afraid of how my mum was gonna act. She mostly ignored me. But she also took my door knob away, decided to think of a better punishment in the new year and get my step dad to check on me at night to make sure I'm alone in my room. I'm in fucking hell. At least my grandmother cheered me up a little bit.
Today hasn't been much better. My step dad wants to kick me out because I said he smells bad. So fucking what!? My mum says that to him all the time! Plus he has called me horrible names so many times and never apologized. He is a complete piece of shit. And my mum spoke to me briefly. Just to tell me what I'm a liar and manipulator. That I'm trying to get people against her, apparently. That she doesn't care if I stop speaking with her forever. And that I only use men for their money. What a fucking cunt. I'm seriously on the verge on committing suicide right now. I can't leave my house, talk to anyone and I've got a drawer filled with pills.
heya dee dee. sorry for all the shit that's happening in your household right now. I know EXACTLY how you feel cause I've experienced the same thing when I was still at my parents. I was at a much younger age too. I was only 17 when they kicked me out but in my case, I had a step-mother who controlled my dad. my grandparents blamed them for my rebellion which really is mostly their fault for neglecting me and thinking punishment and grounding would help. The more they grounded me, the more I rebelled. I do hope things get better though. Wish your parents would see that your mature enough to have a boyfriend that would stop over from time to time. Best of luck girl! Take care and erase those suicidal thoughts.
ReplyDeleteAwww Deedee. I am seriously sad to be hearing what has happened in your house. Maybe, you could wait a few more years until your mom gets okay with it. But hey, look at the bright side. Matt was there to make you happy. Always.
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