♪♫ Sex and Candy - Marcy Playground
So this is the last blog I will be writing before my surgery (which is tomorrow - wish me luck!). I'm not sure when I'll be able to write another blog. I don't know how long it will take for me to recover, but I'm hoping its not any longer than two weeks. I just gotta see how things go. And holy fuck...I'm scared as all hell. :'(
I had a really great day on Sunday. Probably one of the best days I've had in a while. I got ready (& got a picture of myself), met up with Matt, and got some smokes + Powerade at the store. Matt dropped his twelve pack of beer on the way, but luckily only one busted open. So yeah...it didn't take long for us to get to Michelle's for her potluck/party sorta thing. I had only met her a few times before, but she was friendly and she made me feel very welcome. Also, Matt and I were the first two people to arrive. And since Michelle was still preparing the food, Matt and I just sat around and waited for people to show up.
People finally started to arrive about a half an hour later, so we went to socialize. As soon as I walked into the kitchen, I seen my Instagram buddy Sarah (we always like each other's pictures)! I knew she lived in the city, but I had no idea that she knew the same people that I did. It was a huge surprise and she ran to get her boyfriend and bring him to me, then said "This is the girl! My Instagram buddy!". It was pretty exciting. She is such a sweetheart! We talked for a bit, even though I was really awkward. But she is a talkative person, so I don't think she noticed my awkwardness. :P
Everyone else finally showed up, which included some of my best friends; Kat, Missy, Adam and Garnet. I was so pumped to see them! And I seen some old friends that I haven't seen in a really long time. It was a nice reunion. Anyways, we went out for a smoke and I ended up doing a burn with Sarah and Erica (since I can't drink anymore - I just have weed left). I got pretty stoned (still no anxiety!). It loosened me up and made me less awkward. Also, it caused a series of jokes from Kat about me injecting pots, leaving my pot needles in her house, doing pans, smoking pants, getting other people addicted to drugs, needing an intervention, etc. It was hilarious. She was quite drunk. xD
I spent most of my night with Kat, Missy and Matt. There were so many jokes and weird conversations. I loved it. But I didn't like that Matt was following me everywhere. Apparently he has a crush on me. I'm always so oblivious to that sort of thing. Anyways, I ate lots of food (best thing ever - mint chocolate girl guide cookies), joked with Missy about living in her closet, got a couple pictures with Missy and Matt, and other stuff that I can't really remember. In conclusion; it was an awesome time. And I really needed it too. :)
Since its scary as hell around here, I got Matt and James to walk me home. And I'm really glad they did, because something really uncomfortable happened. As we were walking past the strip club, a car full of guys drove by, and they yelled "fuck you!", "whore!", and gave us the finger. James yelled something at them, but I forget what he said. Anyways, they followed us and slowed down their car when we were across the street from the bank. Then they yelled "fuck you!" and gave us the finger again, plus called us "sluts!". Matt gave them the finger back and they just drove off. It was so disturbing. I didn't know any of those guys, and they didn't know me. What makes them think its okay to degrade a woman? Especially in such a pathetic manner. Ugh. However, we did make some jokes and brushed it off. We blamed it on the rips in James' pants that showed off his knees. So slutty, haha. xD
I ended that night by sitting in the square with Matt for a bit (James went home), then I went home and relaxed until I fell asleep. The ending of the night was kinda lame to be honest. But I'm really proud of myself for getting out and interacting with people. My mental issues have been kinda bad lately, so I'm happy that I pushed myself to get out. :)
Yesterday was also a good day. I woke up and was feeling great for no reason. Maybe I was just still happy about the night before. But anyways, I began my day by listening to David Lynch, drinking blueberry herbal tea from my Alice in Wonderland tea cup + tea pot set, and eating oatmeal with brown sugar + cinnamon. Yay! Then I quickly got ready to go to BJ's house for thanksgiving dinner. I decided to wear my fall sweater for the first time this year. It so warm and comfy. :3
BJ and his uncle came to pick me up. I was surprised, because I thought his uncle was out of town. But anyways, I made it to his house. And wow...I feel special. His mother made an entire thanksgiving dinner for me (since my parent's don't celebrate holidays). They had already had a dinner with their extended family over the weekend, but she made a second dinner so that I could have thanksgiving dinner. She even made homemade pumpkin pie and whipped cream, because she knows its one of my favorite desserts! His mom is awesome! But we were so full from dinner that we had to take a break before having dessert. We just relaxed in the living room, and BJ showed me the They Live references in Saints Row IV. :D
After dessert (which was amazing!), BJ and I watched Ghost Adventures. I got him to watch the Poveglia episode, because its my favorite. I think he enjoyed it...not entirely sure though. The episode wasn't the best quality, because we watched it on YouTube. But I did get some yummy chocolate coconut square thingys halfway through watching the episode. They were sooo delicious. I want more. We also looked through Netflix (so that I can see what I'm gonna get when I get Netflix soon), and I found out that they have all the episodes of Twin Peaks. But I'm still going to be buying the DVD set. ^_^
His mom drove me home after that. And I had to quickly clean before my mom came home. I finished just in time! She ended up sitting in my room for a couple hours and talking to me. I told her about my experience the night before with the douchebags yelling from their car. She decided it was a good idea to call the police. So we did, but they said they can't do anything about it. They just suggested that we carry a knife in our purse. So I guess my mom is buying me a knife now. So yeah...nothing else interesting occurred. :P
Today was a great day, once again. Seems like I've been having good luck in the past few days. Anyways, I had to go to an appointment with my therapist not long after I woke up. It was really uncomfortable. We somehow ended up discussing something and she made me feel bad about it. And she wants me to go to a group every Monday. Not sure if I'm gonna do it though. I don't feel that comfortable discussing my issues with a room full of strangers. :/
I had a little bit of time to kill afterwards, so I just walked around the mall. Not long after that, I met up with Missy. We continued walking around for a bit. She was really nervous because today was her first day of work, so I was trying to distract her (I'm not sure if I helped at all). Then we met up with BJ in the square. Kat, Adam, Alice and Eugene showed up not long afterwards. They were throwing seeds for the pigeons and I'm terrified of birds, so I kept running away and hiding. I'd rather hold a tarantula than be close to a bird. Seriously. I hate those fucking things. D:
We had a good time hanging out for a while, but everyone had stuff to do, so we all went our separate ways. BJ and I went to a mall on the other side of town, because I had some shopping to do. We got dinner first though. It was delicious, but he got really upset during the meal and I felt bad. I brought up something and he is beating himself up about it. I wish I could do something to help. Ugh. :(
I also felt bad about dragging him around for so long. We went in so many stores and I bought pretty much everything I need (minus a few things that I don't even need for a couple weeks - blue hair dye, tint brushes, bowls & groceries); bleach, sprinkles, orange gel icing, a cupcake holder, strawberry ice cream and Powerade. Wooo! And I had way too much fun in Walmart. I put on a Luigi costume and BJ took some pictures of me. They're pretty awesome. I wish I could have bought the costume. There is always next year I suppose. I also found a weird skeleton DJ thing that plays music. There is a video on my Instagram if you're interested. :P
BJ's mom drove me home after our long shopping adventure. I was pretty happy that I didn't have to take the bus, plus I wanted to get the strawberry ice cream into my freezer as soon as possible. So BJ walked me to my door and gave me a goodnight kiss. And since then...well I've pretty much been doing nothing. My mom gave me a package that arrived for me earlier today. It turned out to be the used book I ordered; The Silver Sword by Ian Serraillier. Its in great condition! Very happy with it! Also, I gotta clean quickly, then take some melatonin and go to sleep. I have to wake up at 8:00 am for my surgery. Ahhh. Its gonna be so unpleasant. :'(
So this is the last blog I will be writing before my surgery (which is tomorrow - wish me luck!). I'm not sure when I'll be able to write another blog. I don't know how long it will take for me to recover, but I'm hoping its not any longer than two weeks. I just gotta see how things go. And holy fuck...I'm scared as all hell. :'(
I had a really great day on Sunday. Probably one of the best days I've had in a while. I got ready (& got a picture of myself), met up with Matt, and got some smokes + Powerade at the store. Matt dropped his twelve pack of beer on the way, but luckily only one busted open. So yeah...it didn't take long for us to get to Michelle's for her potluck/party sorta thing. I had only met her a few times before, but she was friendly and she made me feel very welcome. Also, Matt and I were the first two people to arrive. And since Michelle was still preparing the food, Matt and I just sat around and waited for people to show up.
People finally started to arrive about a half an hour later, so we went to socialize. As soon as I walked into the kitchen, I seen my Instagram buddy Sarah (we always like each other's pictures)! I knew she lived in the city, but I had no idea that she knew the same people that I did. It was a huge surprise and she ran to get her boyfriend and bring him to me, then said "This is the girl! My Instagram buddy!". It was pretty exciting. She is such a sweetheart! We talked for a bit, even though I was really awkward. But she is a talkative person, so I don't think she noticed my awkwardness. :P
Everyone else finally showed up, which included some of my best friends; Kat, Missy, Adam and Garnet. I was so pumped to see them! And I seen some old friends that I haven't seen in a really long time. It was a nice reunion. Anyways, we went out for a smoke and I ended up doing a burn with Sarah and Erica (since I can't drink anymore - I just have weed left). I got pretty stoned (still no anxiety!). It loosened me up and made me less awkward. Also, it caused a series of jokes from Kat about me injecting pots, leaving my pot needles in her house, doing pans, smoking pants, getting other people addicted to drugs, needing an intervention, etc. It was hilarious. She was quite drunk. xD
I spent most of my night with Kat, Missy and Matt. There were so many jokes and weird conversations. I loved it. But I didn't like that Matt was following me everywhere. Apparently he has a crush on me. I'm always so oblivious to that sort of thing. Anyways, I ate lots of food (best thing ever - mint chocolate girl guide cookies), joked with Missy about living in her closet, got a couple pictures with Missy and Matt, and other stuff that I can't really remember. In conclusion; it was an awesome time. And I really needed it too. :)
Since its scary as hell around here, I got Matt and James to walk me home. And I'm really glad they did, because something really uncomfortable happened. As we were walking past the strip club, a car full of guys drove by, and they yelled "fuck you!", "whore!", and gave us the finger. James yelled something at them, but I forget what he said. Anyways, they followed us and slowed down their car when we were across the street from the bank. Then they yelled "fuck you!" and gave us the finger again, plus called us "sluts!". Matt gave them the finger back and they just drove off. It was so disturbing. I didn't know any of those guys, and they didn't know me. What makes them think its okay to degrade a woman? Especially in such a pathetic manner. Ugh. However, we did make some jokes and brushed it off. We blamed it on the rips in James' pants that showed off his knees. So slutty, haha. xD
I ended that night by sitting in the square with Matt for a bit (James went home), then I went home and relaxed until I fell asleep. The ending of the night was kinda lame to be honest. But I'm really proud of myself for getting out and interacting with people. My mental issues have been kinda bad lately, so I'm happy that I pushed myself to get out. :)
Yesterday was also a good day. I woke up and was feeling great for no reason. Maybe I was just still happy about the night before. But anyways, I began my day by listening to David Lynch, drinking blueberry herbal tea from my Alice in Wonderland tea cup + tea pot set, and eating oatmeal with brown sugar + cinnamon. Yay! Then I quickly got ready to go to BJ's house for thanksgiving dinner. I decided to wear my fall sweater for the first time this year. It so warm and comfy. :3
BJ and his uncle came to pick me up. I was surprised, because I thought his uncle was out of town. But anyways, I made it to his house. And wow...I feel special. His mother made an entire thanksgiving dinner for me (since my parent's don't celebrate holidays). They had already had a dinner with their extended family over the weekend, but she made a second dinner so that I could have thanksgiving dinner. She even made homemade pumpkin pie and whipped cream, because she knows its one of my favorite desserts! His mom is awesome! But we were so full from dinner that we had to take a break before having dessert. We just relaxed in the living room, and BJ showed me the They Live references in Saints Row IV. :D
After dessert (which was amazing!), BJ and I watched Ghost Adventures. I got him to watch the Poveglia episode, because its my favorite. I think he enjoyed it...not entirely sure though. The episode wasn't the best quality, because we watched it on YouTube. But I did get some yummy chocolate coconut square thingys halfway through watching the episode. They were sooo delicious. I want more. We also looked through Netflix (so that I can see what I'm gonna get when I get Netflix soon), and I found out that they have all the episodes of Twin Peaks. But I'm still going to be buying the DVD set. ^_^
His mom drove me home after that. And I had to quickly clean before my mom came home. I finished just in time! She ended up sitting in my room for a couple hours and talking to me. I told her about my experience the night before with the douchebags yelling from their car. She decided it was a good idea to call the police. So we did, but they said they can't do anything about it. They just suggested that we carry a knife in our purse. So I guess my mom is buying me a knife now. So yeah...nothing else interesting occurred. :P
Today was a great day, once again. Seems like I've been having good luck in the past few days. Anyways, I had to go to an appointment with my therapist not long after I woke up. It was really uncomfortable. We somehow ended up discussing something and she made me feel bad about it. And she wants me to go to a group every Monday. Not sure if I'm gonna do it though. I don't feel that comfortable discussing my issues with a room full of strangers. :/
I had a little bit of time to kill afterwards, so I just walked around the mall. Not long after that, I met up with Missy. We continued walking around for a bit. She was really nervous because today was her first day of work, so I was trying to distract her (I'm not sure if I helped at all). Then we met up with BJ in the square. Kat, Adam, Alice and Eugene showed up not long afterwards. They were throwing seeds for the pigeons and I'm terrified of birds, so I kept running away and hiding. I'd rather hold a tarantula than be close to a bird. Seriously. I hate those fucking things. D:
We had a good time hanging out for a while, but everyone had stuff to do, so we all went our separate ways. BJ and I went to a mall on the other side of town, because I had some shopping to do. We got dinner first though. It was delicious, but he got really upset during the meal and I felt bad. I brought up something and he is beating himself up about it. I wish I could do something to help. Ugh. :(
I also felt bad about dragging him around for so long. We went in so many stores and I bought pretty much everything I need (minus a few things that I don't even need for a couple weeks - blue hair dye, tint brushes, bowls & groceries); bleach, sprinkles, orange gel icing, a cupcake holder, strawberry ice cream and Powerade. Wooo! And I had way too much fun in Walmart. I put on a Luigi costume and BJ took some pictures of me. They're pretty awesome. I wish I could have bought the costume. There is always next year I suppose. I also found a weird skeleton DJ thing that plays music. There is a video on my Instagram if you're interested. :P
BJ's mom drove me home after our long shopping adventure. I was pretty happy that I didn't have to take the bus, plus I wanted to get the strawberry ice cream into my freezer as soon as possible. So BJ walked me to my door and gave me a goodnight kiss. And since then...well I've pretty much been doing nothing. My mom gave me a package that arrived for me earlier today. It turned out to be the used book I ordered; The Silver Sword by Ian Serraillier. Its in great condition! Very happy with it! Also, I gotta clean quickly, then take some melatonin and go to sleep. I have to wake up at 8:00 am for my surgery. Ahhh. Its gonna be so unpleasant. :'(
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