♪♫ Threw It On The Ground - The Lonely Island
I found a method to help me remember things! I write down everything that I need to remember for writing blogs on Notepad. And I have an desktop icon for it too, its called "reminders for blog". Its been working really well! So now to start my blog...I'll begin with Sunday; not a whole lot happened. I made my mom and I some homemade pizza. I had to go to the store to get pepperoni (because the pepperoni I bought at the grocery store somehow ended up falling out of the fridge & went bad). I had really bad anxiety the entire time. But I made it there and back. For the rest of the day, I didn't really speak to anyone...I mainly just made gifs. I do remember being upset because of my bad memory (caused by my medication). I hate that my medication is causing short term memory loss. I literally just can’t remember anything anymore. People are telling me that I repeat the same thing fives times, but I have no recollection of saying it at all. This is driving me insane. I feel like I have Alzheimer's.
On Monday, I woke up and decided I wasn't gonna make gifs (since I've been doing it too much lately). My phone plan expired and I can't renew it until tomorrow. Its not a big deal. I can still use it with my wifi. I downloaded an app called textPlus and its been working really well for me. Although, people have been telling me that my number is completely different when I text from the app. Anyways, I spent a while just laying around and surfing the web. Yay! My life is so exciting...
My boyfriend did show up later in the evening. He asked if I wanted to go out for dinner and I wanted to...I just needed time to get my anxiety under control. So while we waited, he tested out some of my video games that I haven't played yet. They work perfect! That whole process took about an hour, then we headed to Jungle Jim's. I seen on their Facebook page that it was half price nacho night. And since nachos are one of my favorite foods; I obviously had to get some! They were amazing. Some of the best nachos I've ever eaten! And then I got my favorite dessert; red velvet cheese cake! It was beyond amazing. I'm going back there on my birthday and getting both of those things, plus some cocktails. ^_^
We walked around for a bit after that. It was slightly foggy out, but not too bad. We eventually made our way to Tim Horton's so that my boyfriend could get his tea fix. He recently has been trying to cut out pop and other unhealthy things. But pop is a huge problem for him. So he is replacing it with tea. After that, he walked me home, then his mom picked him up not long afterwards. I was really tired, but I couldn't sleep at all. I was awake all night again. -_-
I was kinda pissed when I woke up on Tuesday, because the mailman came to the door with packages for me, but my mom didn't answer. So I got two slips of paper telling me I couldn't pick them up until the next day. And I fucking hate waiting for things. I also spoke to her about the $450 she owes me. She says she'll be slowly paying me back until October. I'm pretty pissed. It was money she was supposed to hold onto for me and she spent it. Then she said she would pay me back by the end of August and...ugh...why do I even bother?
After that, I got ready, caught a bus and met up with my boyfriend and Kara (despite not having a way to get a hold of them - we just agreed to meet at the store at 7:30 pm & it worked out). Kara had planned a small going away party for Garnet (he is just moving to a different side of town - we'll still see him). But Garnet...decided to do what he always does and he ditched out. He went on a road trip for two hours and we were pissed. He told us that we could go in his apartment anyways and wait for him, but the front and back door were both locked. Plus his dad caught us and got really pissed. So we decided to go to my boyfriend's porch instead.
We got to my boyfriend's porch and they began drinking (I wasn't in a drinking mood). We played charades and mad libs the entire time. It was hilarious. That went on for about two hours. Then Garnet finally came back. So we walked down to his house to meet him. We all decided to go to the store for munchies before going inside. I hadn't eaten all day and I was hungry as hell. But junk food probably wasn't a good idea. Oh well. :P
We got back to Garnet's and his dad came outside and started yelling. This is nothing new for us. We've all experienced his dad's anger (he made me cry once). He is a miserable man and takes it out on everyone. Anyways, he was yelling at him and saying that he didn't live there anymore (since Garnet got a new apartment - just hasn't moved in yet), so we weren't allowed to go inside. They called each other names, threatened each other, then his dad kicked him out. He grabbed a bag full of stuff and we headed back to my boyfriend's porch.
My boyfriend pulled out three bottles of wine since everyone was feeling stressed. Garnet and Kara got their own bottle. The third one was left untouched, I'm pretty sure. We went back to playing charades and mad libs to get Garnet's mind off the drama. It didn't take long for us to forget about it and start having a good time. Although...his dad did call a few times to apologize. Garnet accepted it, but said he wasn't coming home for a little while. I mean...he is almost 25. He doesn't have to go home at any certain time.
We were there for a couple more hours. Then around 1:00 am, we all started getting really tired. Garnet's lady friend (that he is trying to date) showed up and they made out in front of the house. We creeped on them, like the good friends that we are, haha. Not long after that, everyone decided it was time to go home and sleep. So we all walked Kara home. Garnet went home by himself. My boyfriend and I went back to his house for ten minutes of alone time. I gave him a small list of present ideas for our anniversary, my birthday and Christmas. Then I got a taxi home. It was an awesome night. I even got a weird overtired picture of myself, lmao. :D
It was Pretty Little Liars night, so I grabbed the leftover nachos (from Jungle Jim's) and mixed berry Powerade. I wasn't aware it was the season finale until I began watching it. I read on Facebook that they were gonna reveal who "A" is, so I was pretty pumped. But uh...what in the fucking hell!? The episode was devastating. Craziest ending ever. *Spoilers* There is no way in fucking hell that Ezra is "A", its just...no. It can't be. I'm in denial. I think he followed Aria, because he loves her, then discovered that "A" is after her again and got pissed. I mean...Allison is still alive. She is "A". I'm pretty sure that someone even said that in the episode. If Ezra and Aria end up together and neither one of them is on the "A" team, I will be beyond happy. If not...I'm gonna punch things.
I had a rude awakening early yesterday morning. My mom was accusing me of stealing her leggings. But she is twice the size of me...so clearly I didn't. Then she finds them, but starts bitching about everything she can think of. For fuck sakes. It was the first time in weeks that I was able to fall asleep before 5:00 am and have a good sleep (which I'm very proud of!). But nope. She had to be a crazy bitch...like usual.
But something awesome happened to me. I don't know why, but I had no anxiety at all. I got out of bed after my mom left my room, then without having to convince myself or even think about it for very long; I headed to the post office to pick up my packages! While I was there, I noticed that Halloween candy is out now. So I bought all the Halloween versions of Nestle bars. Still haven't eaten one yet. Saving them for next week when I suffer through my lady issues. Anyways, I also stopped by one of my favorite stores on my way home. Its full of used books, comics, action figures, video games and coins. All things that I love, basically. So I bought more coins to add to my coin collection (its been passed down through my family - I just keep adding to it occasionally)!
I got home and opened my packages. Starting with my Blade Runner comics. I didn't expect them to arrive so quickly! I'm very happy. They were in perfect condition and packaged well. I took my copy out of the plastic wrap. I left my boyfriend's the way it is, so that nothing damages it. The other package was a care package from my grandmother. It was full of awesome stuff; a newspaper, an article about bananas, a receipt (for the hair straightener I bought before I left there), three fantasy paintings (reminds me of Lord of the Rings), twenty dollars, $25 gift card for the grocery store, a "Thinking of you..." card, The Hobbit on DVD, The Stand by Stephen King, candy corn, gummy worms, three chocolate bars (which I gave to my mom), vitamins, BB cream and liquid black eyeliner.
Then I did it again...I left my house without thinking about it! I went to the bank, got a direct deposit form, stuck it in an envelope, then walked to the Social Development building just before it closed and dropped it off. No anxiety at all. I can't believe it! I don't know why this is happening, but I'm so happy! I was so proud of myself, that I decided to award myself with a frozen lemonade. Yum!
When I got home, I was starving. I had just enough leftover stuff to make three homemade pizzas. So I made one for my mom and two for myself. I re-watched the new Pretty Little Liars episode. I just wanted to see if there were any things I missed the first time. It just furthered my denial about Ezra. Not long after that, Instagram stopped working (I know it doesn't sound like a big problem - but I'm addicted!). It wouldn't let me sign in and I tried everything (re-staring my phone, re-starting my wifi, re-installing the app, etc), but nothing was working. So I reset my phone to factory settings. Instagram still didn't work, but my phone works so much better now! I eventually gave up on trying to get into Instagram and I just watched TV, then passed out early (2:30 am - which is a huge improvement for me!). I think my pills are finally working, because I'm starting to feel really drowsy around midnight now.
Today I woke up before my alarm went off! I don't remember the exact time, but it was before noon and that's a big deal, because I usually sleep until 3:00 pm or later. And my check came in the mail! But I can't cash it until tomorrow. Anyways, I spent a while fucking around with the Instagram app and it still wasn't working. Then I unplugged my modem for ten minutes, plugged it back in and viola! It worked! I was so happy that I hugged my phone (I clearly need a life). Oh and I also modified my budget for next month. Its looking like I'll have an extra $30. Not bad. I usually only have $10. :P
Around 4:00 pm, I started thinking about how I've been experiencing weird symptoms lately. Feels like a urinary tract infection or bladder infection...can't remember the difference. But I'm having a hard time peeing. Sometimes I feel like I really have to go, but it would take a few minutes to actually come out. And it burns. And its uncomfortable. So I decided to call the clinic at 5:00 pm. It took ten minutes to get through, then I finally made an appointment for 6:15 pm. I quickly ate a grilled cheese sandwich, then I headed out.
I stopped at Mister Music along the way. I ended up finding the same Pink Floyd leather jacket key chain that I have, except it was in better condition. Mine has a small rip. So I bought it. But I'm keeping the old one too (it has sentimental value). Anyways, since the clinic is attached to Shopper's, I looked around inside there for a while. I found a video game I wanted and it was on sale...but I was ten dollars short. Ugh. And when I finally went into the clinic, I was told that I needed to give a pee sample. Fuck, I really hate that. And I couldn't pee at all. They waited for me for nearly half an hour, then the doctor just decided to give me a prescription based on my symptoms. It wasn't specified exactly what kind of infection I have, but at least I'm getting treated. :D
It took me twenty minutes to walk to the bus stop and luckily the bus was there when I arrived. Good timing. So I headed to the grocery store. I stopped at the dollar store first though. I needed to get two cards (for Kat's birthday and her daughter's birthday - less than a week apart) and no way in hell was I gonna pay $5 for a card somewhere else. Huge rip off! Afterwards, I stopped into Digital World, hoping to find a cheap video game. Nothing appealed to me though. So I finally made it to the grocery store. I put in my prescription at the pharmacy, then looked around for a bit. I bought Kat a bag of skittles and a bag of mini eggs (her favorites) for her birthday (which is on Saturday - but we're celebrating it tomorrow). And I got myself two subs. ^_^
I didn't put this one on Instagram, because I don't want Kat to see it. It would ruin the surprise!
I got my prescription and left as soon as I could. I was tired and achy. I just wanted to go home and rest. On the positive side; my prescription isn't bad at all! I usually get thirty pills that I have to take for ten days or something equally as ridiculous. But I only have ten pills that I have to take twice a day for five days. No problem at all! I already take pills twice a day. I'll just add them into my pill organizer. I really hope they help, because I don't wanna have to go back to the doctor. It's such a pain in the ass. Ugh. :(
My room was clean when I got home. I was planning on doing it, but my mom decided to do it. That's one less thing I have to worry about, lol! Since then, I've pretty much been writing this monster of a blog. And I'm still feeling no anxiety! Yay! Oh and my boyfriend and I are getting Kat's daughter a $25 gift card for her birthday. He is picking it up tomorrow and I'm paying him back half the money. I just thought I'd add that, since I showed a picture of Kat's birthday presents. I didn't want anyone to think I'm an asshole, lol. :3
I found a method to help me remember things! I write down everything that I need to remember for writing blogs on Notepad. And I have an desktop icon for it too, its called "reminders for blog". Its been working really well! So now to start my blog...I'll begin with Sunday; not a whole lot happened. I made my mom and I some homemade pizza. I had to go to the store to get pepperoni (because the pepperoni I bought at the grocery store somehow ended up falling out of the fridge & went bad). I had really bad anxiety the entire time. But I made it there and back. For the rest of the day, I didn't really speak to anyone...I mainly just made gifs. I do remember being upset because of my bad memory (caused by my medication). I hate that my medication is causing short term memory loss. I literally just can’t remember anything anymore. People are telling me that I repeat the same thing fives times, but I have no recollection of saying it at all. This is driving me insane. I feel like I have Alzheimer's.
On Monday, I woke up and decided I wasn't gonna make gifs (since I've been doing it too much lately). My phone plan expired and I can't renew it until tomorrow. Its not a big deal. I can still use it with my wifi. I downloaded an app called textPlus and its been working really well for me. Although, people have been telling me that my number is completely different when I text from the app. Anyways, I spent a while just laying around and surfing the web. Yay! My life is so exciting...
My boyfriend did show up later in the evening. He asked if I wanted to go out for dinner and I wanted to...I just needed time to get my anxiety under control. So while we waited, he tested out some of my video games that I haven't played yet. They work perfect! That whole process took about an hour, then we headed to Jungle Jim's. I seen on their Facebook page that it was half price nacho night. And since nachos are one of my favorite foods; I obviously had to get some! They were amazing. Some of the best nachos I've ever eaten! And then I got my favorite dessert; red velvet cheese cake! It was beyond amazing. I'm going back there on my birthday and getting both of those things, plus some cocktails. ^_^
We walked around for a bit after that. It was slightly foggy out, but not too bad. We eventually made our way to Tim Horton's so that my boyfriend could get his tea fix. He recently has been trying to cut out pop and other unhealthy things. But pop is a huge problem for him. So he is replacing it with tea. After that, he walked me home, then his mom picked him up not long afterwards. I was really tired, but I couldn't sleep at all. I was awake all night again. -_-
I was kinda pissed when I woke up on Tuesday, because the mailman came to the door with packages for me, but my mom didn't answer. So I got two slips of paper telling me I couldn't pick them up until the next day. And I fucking hate waiting for things. I also spoke to her about the $450 she owes me. She says she'll be slowly paying me back until October. I'm pretty pissed. It was money she was supposed to hold onto for me and she spent it. Then she said she would pay me back by the end of August and...ugh...why do I even bother?
After that, I got ready, caught a bus and met up with my boyfriend and Kara (despite not having a way to get a hold of them - we just agreed to meet at the store at 7:30 pm & it worked out). Kara had planned a small going away party for Garnet (he is just moving to a different side of town - we'll still see him). But Garnet...decided to do what he always does and he ditched out. He went on a road trip for two hours and we were pissed. He told us that we could go in his apartment anyways and wait for him, but the front and back door were both locked. Plus his dad caught us and got really pissed. So we decided to go to my boyfriend's porch instead.
We got to my boyfriend's porch and they began drinking (I wasn't in a drinking mood). We played charades and mad libs the entire time. It was hilarious. That went on for about two hours. Then Garnet finally came back. So we walked down to his house to meet him. We all decided to go to the store for munchies before going inside. I hadn't eaten all day and I was hungry as hell. But junk food probably wasn't a good idea. Oh well. :P
We got back to Garnet's and his dad came outside and started yelling. This is nothing new for us. We've all experienced his dad's anger (he made me cry once). He is a miserable man and takes it out on everyone. Anyways, he was yelling at him and saying that he didn't live there anymore (since Garnet got a new apartment - just hasn't moved in yet), so we weren't allowed to go inside. They called each other names, threatened each other, then his dad kicked him out. He grabbed a bag full of stuff and we headed back to my boyfriend's porch.
My boyfriend pulled out three bottles of wine since everyone was feeling stressed. Garnet and Kara got their own bottle. The third one was left untouched, I'm pretty sure. We went back to playing charades and mad libs to get Garnet's mind off the drama. It didn't take long for us to forget about it and start having a good time. Although...his dad did call a few times to apologize. Garnet accepted it, but said he wasn't coming home for a little while. I mean...he is almost 25. He doesn't have to go home at any certain time.
We were there for a couple more hours. Then around 1:00 am, we all started getting really tired. Garnet's lady friend (that he is trying to date) showed up and they made out in front of the house. We creeped on them, like the good friends that we are, haha. Not long after that, everyone decided it was time to go home and sleep. So we all walked Kara home. Garnet went home by himself. My boyfriend and I went back to his house for ten minutes of alone time. I gave him a small list of present ideas for our anniversary, my birthday and Christmas. Then I got a taxi home. It was an awesome night. I even got a weird overtired picture of myself, lmao. :D
It was Pretty Little Liars night, so I grabbed the leftover nachos (from Jungle Jim's) and mixed berry Powerade. I wasn't aware it was the season finale until I began watching it. I read on Facebook that they were gonna reveal who "A" is, so I was pretty pumped. But uh...what in the fucking hell!? The episode was devastating. Craziest ending ever. *Spoilers* There is no way in fucking hell that Ezra is "A", its just...no. It can't be. I'm in denial. I think he followed Aria, because he loves her, then discovered that "A" is after her again and got pissed. I mean...Allison is still alive. She is "A". I'm pretty sure that someone even said that in the episode. If Ezra and Aria end up together and neither one of them is on the "A" team, I will be beyond happy. If not...I'm gonna punch things.
I had a rude awakening early yesterday morning. My mom was accusing me of stealing her leggings. But she is twice the size of me...so clearly I didn't. Then she finds them, but starts bitching about everything she can think of. For fuck sakes. It was the first time in weeks that I was able to fall asleep before 5:00 am and have a good sleep (which I'm very proud of!). But nope. She had to be a crazy bitch...like usual.
But something awesome happened to me. I don't know why, but I had no anxiety at all. I got out of bed after my mom left my room, then without having to convince myself or even think about it for very long; I headed to the post office to pick up my packages! While I was there, I noticed that Halloween candy is out now. So I bought all the Halloween versions of Nestle bars. Still haven't eaten one yet. Saving them for next week when I suffer through my lady issues. Anyways, I also stopped by one of my favorite stores on my way home. Its full of used books, comics, action figures, video games and coins. All things that I love, basically. So I bought more coins to add to my coin collection (its been passed down through my family - I just keep adding to it occasionally)!
I got home and opened my packages. Starting with my Blade Runner comics. I didn't expect them to arrive so quickly! I'm very happy. They were in perfect condition and packaged well. I took my copy out of the plastic wrap. I left my boyfriend's the way it is, so that nothing damages it. The other package was a care package from my grandmother. It was full of awesome stuff; a newspaper, an article about bananas, a receipt (for the hair straightener I bought before I left there), three fantasy paintings (reminds me of Lord of the Rings), twenty dollars, $25 gift card for the grocery store, a "Thinking of you..." card, The Hobbit on DVD, The Stand by Stephen King, candy corn, gummy worms, three chocolate bars (which I gave to my mom), vitamins, BB cream and liquid black eyeliner.
Then I did it again...I left my house without thinking about it! I went to the bank, got a direct deposit form, stuck it in an envelope, then walked to the Social Development building just before it closed and dropped it off. No anxiety at all. I can't believe it! I don't know why this is happening, but I'm so happy! I was so proud of myself, that I decided to award myself with a frozen lemonade. Yum!
When I got home, I was starving. I had just enough leftover stuff to make three homemade pizzas. So I made one for my mom and two for myself. I re-watched the new Pretty Little Liars episode. I just wanted to see if there were any things I missed the first time. It just furthered my denial about Ezra. Not long after that, Instagram stopped working (I know it doesn't sound like a big problem - but I'm addicted!). It wouldn't let me sign in and I tried everything (re-staring my phone, re-starting my wifi, re-installing the app, etc), but nothing was working. So I reset my phone to factory settings. Instagram still didn't work, but my phone works so much better now! I eventually gave up on trying to get into Instagram and I just watched TV, then passed out early (2:30 am - which is a huge improvement for me!). I think my pills are finally working, because I'm starting to feel really drowsy around midnight now.
Today I woke up before my alarm went off! I don't remember the exact time, but it was before noon and that's a big deal, because I usually sleep until 3:00 pm or later. And my check came in the mail! But I can't cash it until tomorrow. Anyways, I spent a while fucking around with the Instagram app and it still wasn't working. Then I unplugged my modem for ten minutes, plugged it back in and viola! It worked! I was so happy that I hugged my phone (I clearly need a life). Oh and I also modified my budget for next month. Its looking like I'll have an extra $30. Not bad. I usually only have $10. :P
Around 4:00 pm, I started thinking about how I've been experiencing weird symptoms lately. Feels like a urinary tract infection or bladder infection...can't remember the difference. But I'm having a hard time peeing. Sometimes I feel like I really have to go, but it would take a few minutes to actually come out. And it burns. And its uncomfortable. So I decided to call the clinic at 5:00 pm. It took ten minutes to get through, then I finally made an appointment for 6:15 pm. I quickly ate a grilled cheese sandwich, then I headed out.
I stopped at Mister Music along the way. I ended up finding the same Pink Floyd leather jacket key chain that I have, except it was in better condition. Mine has a small rip. So I bought it. But I'm keeping the old one too (it has sentimental value). Anyways, since the clinic is attached to Shopper's, I looked around inside there for a while. I found a video game I wanted and it was on sale...but I was ten dollars short. Ugh. And when I finally went into the clinic, I was told that I needed to give a pee sample. Fuck, I really hate that. And I couldn't pee at all. They waited for me for nearly half an hour, then the doctor just decided to give me a prescription based on my symptoms. It wasn't specified exactly what kind of infection I have, but at least I'm getting treated. :D
It took me twenty minutes to walk to the bus stop and luckily the bus was there when I arrived. Good timing. So I headed to the grocery store. I stopped at the dollar store first though. I needed to get two cards (for Kat's birthday and her daughter's birthday - less than a week apart) and no way in hell was I gonna pay $5 for a card somewhere else. Huge rip off! Afterwards, I stopped into Digital World, hoping to find a cheap video game. Nothing appealed to me though. So I finally made it to the grocery store. I put in my prescription at the pharmacy, then looked around for a bit. I bought Kat a bag of skittles and a bag of mini eggs (her favorites) for her birthday (which is on Saturday - but we're celebrating it tomorrow). And I got myself two subs. ^_^
I didn't put this one on Instagram, because I don't want Kat to see it. It would ruin the surprise!
I got my prescription and left as soon as I could. I was tired and achy. I just wanted to go home and rest. On the positive side; my prescription isn't bad at all! I usually get thirty pills that I have to take for ten days or something equally as ridiculous. But I only have ten pills that I have to take twice a day for five days. No problem at all! I already take pills twice a day. I'll just add them into my pill organizer. I really hope they help, because I don't wanna have to go back to the doctor. It's such a pain in the ass. Ugh. :(
My room was clean when I got home. I was planning on doing it, but my mom decided to do it. That's one less thing I have to worry about, lol! Since then, I've pretty much been writing this monster of a blog. And I'm still feeling no anxiety! Yay! Oh and my boyfriend and I are getting Kat's daughter a $25 gift card for her birthday. He is picking it up tomorrow and I'm paying him back half the money. I just thought I'd add that, since I showed a picture of Kat's birthday presents. I didn't want anyone to think I'm an asshole, lol. :3
That's a creative idea, I use the sticky notes on my laptop to help me remember... I put it all in point form! That cake looks FUCKING AMAZING, but I see yucky black olives on the nachos. Don't lend money out... I never lend money unless I know I'll be getting it back exactly when they say they so. It's awful to put your ass on the line and be screwed over. Especially when the money wasn't lent to them in the first place...
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