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I figured out whats wrong with me. I'm not a doctor, but I'm 99% sure about this. I was told a few years back that I have clinical depression and was sent to therapy with medication added on top of that. But after thinking about it in the past few days and looking up a lot of information on the internet, I'm quite sure I have Seasonal Affective Disorder (also known as SAD). I'm only depressed in the winter. In the summer I'm always happy and energetic. I have every symptom. I've even had bad experiences in the summer, but managed to stay positive. But if I have the same situation in the winter, I'm in bed for weeks, crying and feeling dreadful.
I'm going to speak to the psychiatrist about this. I really don't want to be on medication. As silly as it sounds, most anti-depressant medication causes sexual dysfunction (inability to orgasm or even get aroused) and weight gain. For one: I'm in a relationship, and two: I've definitely not a virgin. I enjoy sex and don't want to go without it have it potentially ruin my relationship (sex isn't everything, but going without for a long time can be frustrating and push a relationship apart). There is even reports that medication has caused people to not be able to feel love. I'm not sure if this is true or not, but there is just too many bad side effects and I'd rather just get therapy.
One thing that I would like to try, is light therapy. Its about $200 for a light therapy lamp, but I think it would help a lot. Once I move out on my own, I'm gonna try to get a treadmill and I'm gonna buy healthier food, which I think will really help me feel better. I just hate waiting and I'm also extremely worried about getting onto disability (for my social anxiety disorder). I need to move out from my mother's house, because its a really bad environment for me to be in. Especially because I'm trying to get better. So I need to get my own place, but having social anxiety disorder, my only option is disability. And it will only be temporary. I just need to be able to get on my feet, so I can go to college and get a good job.
I figured out whats wrong with me. I'm not a doctor, but I'm 99% sure about this. I was told a few years back that I have clinical depression and was sent to therapy with medication added on top of that. But after thinking about it in the past few days and looking up a lot of information on the internet, I'm quite sure I have Seasonal Affective Disorder (also known as SAD). I'm only depressed in the winter. In the summer I'm always happy and energetic. I have every symptom. I've even had bad experiences in the summer, but managed to stay positive. But if I have the same situation in the winter, I'm in bed for weeks, crying and feeling dreadful.
I'm going to speak to the psychiatrist about this. I really don't want to be on medication. As silly as it sounds, most anti-depressant medication causes sexual dysfunction (inability to orgasm or even get aroused) and weight gain. For one: I'm in a relationship, and two: I've definitely not a virgin. I enjoy sex and don't want to go without it have it potentially ruin my relationship (sex isn't everything, but going without for a long time can be frustrating and push a relationship apart). There is even reports that medication has caused people to not be able to feel love. I'm not sure if this is true or not, but there is just too many bad side effects and I'd rather just get therapy.
One thing that I would like to try, is light therapy. Its about $200 for a light therapy lamp, but I think it would help a lot. Once I move out on my own, I'm gonna try to get a treadmill and I'm gonna buy healthier food, which I think will really help me feel better. I just hate waiting and I'm also extremely worried about getting onto disability (for my social anxiety disorder). I need to move out from my mother's house, because its a really bad environment for me to be in. Especially because I'm trying to get better. So I need to get my own place, but having social anxiety disorder, my only option is disability. And it will only be temporary. I just need to be able to get on my feet, so I can go to college and get a good job.
Awe, sweetness, I'm so sorry you have to deal with this and go through that depression type. I'm glad you're going to figure out something to do about it, though. That's always a good thing to move on positively from it!! Medications? I don't blame you on not wanting to take them, I'm off of them 2 years now! I used to take Abilify (was on that for a year) and I took Risperidone for a week (that made me sick so I had to get off of it). Both of them made me feel worse, Abilify heightened my symptoms and made them much, much worse. Even gave me more symptoms than what I was already dealing with and trying to get rid of... I hope you find a method that works better for you rather than taking a pill! Therapy works, and there are so many methods and forms of therapy that can help you out ~ you just need to find something that works for YOU :) Best of luck with that and do keep me posted if you'd like, much love!
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