'cause she's my companion

♪♫ Under The Bridge - Red Hot Chili Peppers

I have so much to blog about. I literally cannot write this in paragraphs. It will be too long. So I'm gonna write it in bullet form...

On Thursday I went to the bar with Kaley. I actually barely remember. Not because I was drunk...just got a bad memory.

I was trying to sleep for a job searching on Friday, but I ended up staying up all night.

The main reason I stayed up all night, is because the guy I like...lets call him "K", so K texted me...

Him: Thinking about you.
Me: Really? Awww. <3
Him: Yeah! I’ve been thinking of you since we were talking earlier.
Me: And you decided to tell me this at 4 am? Haha. :P
Him: Lol yeah, I seen on Facebook that you couldn’t sleep.
*sarcasm* Yeah, I slept really well after that…

Applied for two jobs. Nearly had a panic attack because I was so nervous. But I did it!

Met up with Emily after that.

I seen K while I was waiting for Emily to get there.

K hungout with me and Emily for a bit.

Me and Emily decided to drink at Spencer's.

I had a weird night.

Creepy guy was hitting on me.

I met some new friends.

I texted K and we talked about a bunch of stuff.

Me, Emily and Taylor went to some guy's place to stay overnight.

They got a video of me being yelled at, sang to, hit with pillows and danced on...while I was sleeping. Its pretty funny.

Walked home after that and almost puked.

Later that day, K asked me to come to his place for the night.

I had awful anxiety getting ready to leave.

Before I went, I got Subway and groceries with my mom. I also got a new shirt that I'm scared to wear. I hate my arms.

I bought alcohol and smokes to help us loosen up.

We got drunk, listened to music, played video games, watched movies and talked.

I realized that I like him even more than I thought I did. We have so much in common, its kinda scary. We said the same thing at the same time a few times.

We had a hardcore makeout session. He bit my neck so much that I have a giant bruise there now.

We didn't have sex and never once mentioned it or pressured me into it. I told him from the start I wanted to take it slow and I'm glad he respected that.

This was my favorite part of the night...

While kissing...
Me: You taste like colt 45.
Him: You taste like chips.
*both of us laugh*

We cuddled all night and he kept doing cute things like kissing my forehead, my hand and my nose.

When we woke up, we went to meet up with Tristan and a few other people.

They were drinking in the trees by the skate park.

Me and K ended up laying in a hamak as the rain fell through the trees. We didn't even care that we were getting soaked. We just held hands and cuddled.

I haven’t had feelings like this for someone in a long time. It feels so wonderful. Like I can actually see beauty in things I’ve never seen it before. Its bringing out the best in me and making me feel like the world is beautiful. Nothing compares to when he touches me. Even just brushing by my arm. Nothing else feels like it. I instantly feel sparks. Its amazing what a small touch can do. When he holds me close, I just wanna melt. He is so warm and he feels so comfortable. I feel so safe, like no one can’t hurt me. I feel like everything bad in the world just disappears and nothing but happiness is left. But when he kisses me…Its like there literally isn’t anything in the world. There is no world. Just me and him. Its crazy how one small decision can change everything. I made the decision to drink with him a week ago. And I literally made that decision on the spot. I had other plans. But somehow I just felt like I should hangout with him. Random feeling…but hey, look at what happened!

Last night was a shit show.

I was supposed to stay overnight at my friend Kaley's place, but she ended up getting drunk and she is the most awful drunk ever. She can't stand, walk or talk and I don't like being a babysitter.

I decided I was going to ditch her to go see K. She found out and made a big scene.

Collin picked us all up and took us to K's house. Kaley made an ass of herself. K did not like her at all. And she embarrassed me. So Tristan took Kaley to her house.

There were lots more cuddles and kisses.

He knows how much I hate my body, so he kissed my stomach and my stretch marks and it made me feel beautiful.

At one point during the night, I woke up and he was holding me tight. I moved a bit and he knew I was awake, so he said "I just never wanna let you go". It was too cute.

We woke up and spent a little bit of time together, then we headed uptown.

Uptown was full of people that I hate and he hates too, so we didn't stay long. I did see Emily though, which was wonderful. Collin drove me home and K gave me a kiss before I went inside. :)

Me, Emily and K made plans for Friday. I'm excited.

Me and Kaley are now in a huge fight. I don't even care if I'm an asshole. I'm done with her shit.

Thats pretty much it.