♪♫ Far Cry - Rush
I've recently gone through something that is extremely stressful. I had to confront one of my so called 'best friends' about talking behind my back. I had proof and I haven't done anything wrong to deserve that treatment. It hurt a lot and I felt really betrayed. I cried quite a few times and I felt pretty depressed. But now I'm fine with it. I realize that I'm better off without that treatment. I'm a good person and I deserve better. So I'm letting it go and moving on. I wont be talking to or about the person any more. Its over with and I'm so glad.
Another thing that makes me very happy, is the fact that everything is gonna go back to normal. For months everyone seemed to be fighting, but we figured out the problems and discussed them. Everything got worked out and I've already noticed good changes. Before I know it, we'll all be watching movies, eating pizza, getting drunk, laughing...all the stuff we used to do. No more complicated bullshit. One of the main things that was complicated, was me and Garnet...
He was never really clear on what he wanted. I wasn't sure if he liked me or didn't like me. But he made it clear last night. He does like me, but he doesn't want a relationship. Which I'm absolutely fine with. I'm really not in a state to be in a relationship right now anyways. All I wanted (and I'm quite sure he wants this too...) is to be friends, like each other (as more than friends) and get to know each other. Because we most likely will have a relationship in the future.
I don't want it to be complicated in any way. He can have sex with any girls he wants to and I can have sex with any guys I want to (but we made one rule: one night stands only)...although, that probably wont happen. I'm quite shy around guys. I'm shy around anyone actually...but yeah. All I know, is I'm happy with what me and him talked about. I feel comfortable and I'm confident that there will be no more complications. I'm satisfied with the answers I got and I feel happy about it.
Life is starting to look a lot better. I have my best friends that care a lot about me, I'm going back into school, I've lost some weight, I'm gonna cut back on smoking and try to eat healthier and I'm working on my anxiety. I also want to work on my flaws. I do realize that I gossip sometimes, which I dislike. I don't wanna talk behind anyone's back. I also wanna work on putting my problems aside and listening to my friends and helping them out. 'Cause they mean a lot to me. :D
This weekend I'm gonna see my best friends (Garnet and Kara) for the last time before school starts (then I'll only be able to see them on weekends). We're gonna get Subway, watch movies, play Zelda, etc. We may even have a bonfire. Its gonna be a ton of fun and I can't wait!
I've recently gone through something that is extremely stressful. I had to confront one of my so called 'best friends' about talking behind my back. I had proof and I haven't done anything wrong to deserve that treatment. It hurt a lot and I felt really betrayed. I cried quite a few times and I felt pretty depressed. But now I'm fine with it. I realize that I'm better off without that treatment. I'm a good person and I deserve better. So I'm letting it go and moving on. I wont be talking to or about the person any more. Its over with and I'm so glad.
Another thing that makes me very happy, is the fact that everything is gonna go back to normal. For months everyone seemed to be fighting, but we figured out the problems and discussed them. Everything got worked out and I've already noticed good changes. Before I know it, we'll all be watching movies, eating pizza, getting drunk, laughing...all the stuff we used to do. No more complicated bullshit. One of the main things that was complicated, was me and Garnet...
He was never really clear on what he wanted. I wasn't sure if he liked me or didn't like me. But he made it clear last night. He does like me, but he doesn't want a relationship. Which I'm absolutely fine with. I'm really not in a state to be in a relationship right now anyways. All I wanted (and I'm quite sure he wants this too...) is to be friends, like each other (as more than friends) and get to know each other. Because we most likely will have a relationship in the future.
I don't want it to be complicated in any way. He can have sex with any girls he wants to and I can have sex with any guys I want to (but we made one rule: one night stands only)...although, that probably wont happen. I'm quite shy around guys. I'm shy around anyone actually...but yeah. All I know, is I'm happy with what me and him talked about. I feel comfortable and I'm confident that there will be no more complications. I'm satisfied with the answers I got and I feel happy about it.
Life is starting to look a lot better. I have my best friends that care a lot about me, I'm going back into school, I've lost some weight, I'm gonna cut back on smoking and try to eat healthier and I'm working on my anxiety. I also want to work on my flaws. I do realize that I gossip sometimes, which I dislike. I don't wanna talk behind anyone's back. I also wanna work on putting my problems aside and listening to my friends and helping them out. 'Cause they mean a lot to me. :D
This weekend I'm gonna see my best friends (Garnet and Kara) for the last time before school starts (then I'll only be able to see them on weekends). We're gonna get Subway, watch movies, play Zelda, etc. We may even have a bonfire. Its gonna be a ton of fun and I can't wait!
I'm glad that b*tch isn't ruining your life anymore, she was so horrible! You deserve better.
ReplyDeleteI'm also glad stuff with you and Garnet have been spoken about and you both know where you're standing! ♥
I think that weekend sounds awesome! Subway, movies, Zelda. Oh my God, I need to be West with you guys someday! ♥