Last night I got into a fight with Ryan (ex-boyfriend), who I haven't spoken to in months. I told him hes doing something wrong, because he is "seeing" a girl who has a boyfriend. But he didn't think it was wrong. Him & I used to fight all the time (reason why we broke up!). Anyways I ended the fight, telling him that I was going to move on with my life & he should too. But I ended up having a dream last night that scared me...
In my dream Ryan was standing in front of the whole school with my diary, reading it out loud as everybody laughed. I was crying & even the teachers didn't care. So I dropped out of school & moved back in with my mother. Then at one point, I was sitting outside crying. A cute guy came up to me & told me everything was going to be okay. Then suddenly I went forty years into the future & I was married to that cute guy. We had kids & we were about to board a plane to Europe (for vacation). The thought of Ryan didn't even enter my mind!
My interpretation of this dream is I need to let go. Not just let go of how Ryan treated me, but how my mother treated me. I didn't deserve the abuse they put me through. So I'm dumping them in the past & moving into the future. I'm living for me now & I'm gonna achieve my dreams no matter what. I can't even tell you how good it feels to be free!
A couple days ago I went to the Dingle (historical tower) with Nana Claire, Marta & Boo Boo (dog). I mainly just wanted to go there to see my favorite purple house xD. I looks like a giant Victorian doll house & I love it! Anyways, we got some ice cream & walked down to the nearby beach. It was great, I wish I could have stayed longer!
Yesterday I went to my dad's house for the afternoon. He gave me a Radiohead poster, an Alexisonfire album, a Cheshire cat mirror & a clown doll. Then we went to Point Pleasant Park for some food. But all they had was junk food, so I had ice cream, chips & a hamburger. When I was done eating, we walked along the beach for a little while. Unfortunately a meal of junk food wasn't the greatest idea & I got sick, so I had to go home.
Later on that evening, once I started feeling better,
I decided to go to the Natal Day fireworks. We stopped at the store for junk food (ice cream & gummies), then headed to Banook Lake to get a good spot. We sat near the edge of the lake, which was absolutely amazing. The moonlight on the water & the stars in the sky made it magical. Anyways, the fireworks lasted about fifteen minutes & honestly, they weren't that great, but oh well. :P
Wow...that was a long blog, haha. I'm gonna go get breakfast & watch cartoons. Goodbye!
In my dream Ryan was standing in front of the whole school with my diary, reading it out loud as everybody laughed. I was crying & even the teachers didn't care. So I dropped out of school & moved back in with my mother. Then at one point, I was sitting outside crying. A cute guy came up to me & told me everything was going to be okay. Then suddenly I went forty years into the future & I was married to that cute guy. We had kids & we were about to board a plane to Europe (for vacation). The thought of Ryan didn't even enter my mind!
My interpretation of this dream is I need to let go. Not just let go of how Ryan treated me, but how my mother treated me. I didn't deserve the abuse they put me through. So I'm dumping them in the past & moving into the future. I'm living for me now & I'm gonna achieve my dreams no matter what. I can't even tell you how good it feels to be free!
A couple days ago I went to the Dingle (historical tower) with Nana Claire, Marta & Boo Boo (dog). I mainly just wanted to go there to see my favorite purple house xD. I looks like a giant Victorian doll house & I love it! Anyways, we got some ice cream & walked down to the nearby beach. It was great, I wish I could have stayed longer!
Yesterday I went to my dad's house for the afternoon. He gave me a Radiohead poster, an Alexisonfire album, a Cheshire cat mirror & a clown doll. Then we went to Point Pleasant Park for some food. But all they had was junk food, so I had ice cream, chips & a hamburger. When I was done eating, we walked along the beach for a little while. Unfortunately a meal of junk food wasn't the greatest idea & I got sick, so I had to go home.
Later on that evening, once I started feeling better,
I decided to go to the Natal Day fireworks. We stopped at the store for junk food (ice cream & gummies), then headed to Banook Lake to get a good spot. We sat near the edge of the lake, which was absolutely amazing. The moonlight on the water & the stars in the sky made it magical. Anyways, the fireworks lasted about fifteen minutes & honestly, they weren't that great, but oh well. :P Wow...that was a long blog, haha. I'm gonna go get breakfast & watch cartoons. Goodbye!
Ohmygosh, this is SUPER cute. Is that you in the picture? Its all soft and gorgeous and I love it. (:
ReplyDeleteBut sheesh, I seem to be hearing so much about Ryan's lately. The Scott in my blog? That's actually his last name, he's really a Ryan. Plus there's about three more, which is super weird.
But as far as your dream goes...I think that you've got it pretty much down pat - sometimes you've just got to move on and let go. Glad to see that you can do that :)
Sometimes dreams can tell you something - and its great that you've realised what you want to gain from it. :)
ReplyDeleteThe fireworks look beautiful! <3
mmm yes. exes are exes for a reason. best to move on and look to the future! sometimes dreams are useful things, haha!
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