♪♫ Cinnamon Girl - Lana Del Rey
The past week has been a very rough/exciting one. I feel like I'm going through some sort of major life change and I'm not entirely sure what brought it on so suddenly. I knew after my break up back in March that I wanted to do all the things I was unable to do in that relationship. He wasn't controlling or anything, but I let people's opinions really affect me, which I shouldn't. He hated dyed hair, makeup, tattoos, etc. Those are all things that I've always loved, so I kinda wasn't myself when I was with him. Now I'm doing all the things I want to do!
I had two major things planned for this past week; eyelash extensions and a tattoo. Maybe that is what brought on the sudden change I felt. It feels good, because I feel like myself... but it also feels strange, because I was stuck for so long as someone else's version of me. It feels kinda surreal that I'm out of that now and I'm free to do what I want. I still have plans to do more to get back to myself, which is exciting.
Here are my new eyelash extensions! I can never go back to my regular eyelashes now. I have zero eye makeup on in this picture, but it looks like I do. Effortlessly looking good everyday now!
She went a little thick on the letter "c" so I'm having her thicken up the other letters to match up. The rest of it looks amazing, especially the key. I'm so thrilled! If you don't understand what it is; its from the movie Mulholland Drive by David Lynch and it has a very personal meaning to me.
I already have another tattoo booked for the end of September! I'm getting a big blue rose on my right arm. I already have a plan for that entire arm, which I hope to finish in the next 12 months (ideally I'd like to get one tattoo per month). After the blue rose, I'm getting a neotraditional style sun on my lower arm, a neotraditional style moon on my upper arm, tons of colorful flowers/succulents/cacti going all up and around my arm, and some song lyrics randomly intertwined. On my left arm, because I already have one David Lynch themed tattoo, I'm going to be getting a few more on there as well. Aside from that, I'm unsure what else to put on that arm, but I have lots of time to decide! I also have other tattoos I want to get, but I'm focusing on my right arm for now.
I've also ordered some new clothes! I want to order more, but I'm holding off for now. Other things I really want to get done are; a crow's feet piercing and an industrial ear piercing. I know it all seems like a lot, but these are things I wanted to get done for several years. What stopped me for a long time was money, then it was a shitty relationship. I'm finally following through with my dreams! So exciting!
Later today I'm going to a BBQ with coworkers, where we will have drinks and delicious food. After that, I'm staying the night with my friend/coworker and tomorrow we are headed off on our road trip to the cottage we are spending three days at. We will be hiking, drinking, playing games, roasting marshmallows/veggie dogs, and more. So thrilled to get away from the city for a bit! I hope everyone is well!
The past week has been a very rough/exciting one. I feel like I'm going through some sort of major life change and I'm not entirely sure what brought it on so suddenly. I knew after my break up back in March that I wanted to do all the things I was unable to do in that relationship. He wasn't controlling or anything, but I let people's opinions really affect me, which I shouldn't. He hated dyed hair, makeup, tattoos, etc. Those are all things that I've always loved, so I kinda wasn't myself when I was with him. Now I'm doing all the things I want to do!
I had two major things planned for this past week; eyelash extensions and a tattoo. Maybe that is what brought on the sudden change I felt. It feels good, because I feel like myself... but it also feels strange, because I was stuck for so long as someone else's version of me. It feels kinda surreal that I'm out of that now and I'm free to do what I want. I still have plans to do more to get back to myself, which is exciting.
Here are my new eyelash extensions! I can never go back to my regular eyelashes now. I have zero eye makeup on in this picture, but it looks like I do. Effortlessly looking good everyday now!
She went a little thick on the letter "c" so I'm having her thicken up the other letters to match up. The rest of it looks amazing, especially the key. I'm so thrilled! If you don't understand what it is; its from the movie Mulholland Drive by David Lynch and it has a very personal meaning to me.
I already have another tattoo booked for the end of September! I'm getting a big blue rose on my right arm. I already have a plan for that entire arm, which I hope to finish in the next 12 months (ideally I'd like to get one tattoo per month). After the blue rose, I'm getting a neotraditional style sun on my lower arm, a neotraditional style moon on my upper arm, tons of colorful flowers/succulents/cacti going all up and around my arm, and some song lyrics randomly intertwined. On my left arm, because I already have one David Lynch themed tattoo, I'm going to be getting a few more on there as well. Aside from that, I'm unsure what else to put on that arm, but I have lots of time to decide! I also have other tattoos I want to get, but I'm focusing on my right arm for now.
I've also ordered some new clothes! I want to order more, but I'm holding off for now. Other things I really want to get done are; a crow's feet piercing and an industrial ear piercing. I know it all seems like a lot, but these are things I wanted to get done for several years. What stopped me for a long time was money, then it was a shitty relationship. I'm finally following through with my dreams! So exciting!
Later today I'm going to a BBQ with coworkers, where we will have drinks and delicious food. After that, I'm staying the night with my friend/coworker and tomorrow we are headed off on our road trip to the cottage we are spending three days at. We will be hiking, drinking, playing games, roasting marshmallows/veggie dogs, and more. So thrilled to get away from the city for a bit! I hope everyone is well!
I'm really happy to hear about how your able to be yourself now, I see a lot of people my younger sister (middle sis), and friends lose who they are so much in a relationship that is so good to see someone come out of that and be themselves.
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Good for you! I'm glad that you're getting to do the things you've wanted to do. Never let anyone turn you into someone you don't recognize.
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