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I am so stressed out! School work seems to be piling up and its freaking me out! There is only three weeks left of school and I can't wait! This is hell! Ugh!!! I'm just having one of those days... usually I am calm and able to handle my stress, but not today. Today, I'm feeling anxious and worried. I hate having days like this. I think it might partially be due to the fact I haven't seen my boyfriend in a while and I haven't been able to... relieve my stress. I think I just need a good night's sleep...
My memory issues having been getting worse. Due to my PTSD, my brain's ability to process short term memory into long term memory is impacted. I struggle really hard with remembering even simple things. Sometimes in the middle of a conversation, I will forget everything that was just said on either side. My boyfriend says that I can get better if I do memory exercises and make it a priority, but honestly I wonder if there is even a point. Maybe the damage is permanent and there is nothing I can do? I don't know... but it is making me really upset.
I also think I gained a bit of weight. I've been stress eating. I hate myself for it, but I can't help it. I don't know what to do with myself. This is really rough... I know I will get through it... but it sucks so much right now. Ugh. I have to go do a presentation for the first year child and youth care students about the Teen Program that I co-created in about an hour... I can't wait to get that over with. I am excited to talk about it, because I'm passionate about it... but I'm also tired and I have a lot of anxiety about school right now.
I just needed to vent. That is it for now. I will try to blog again soon.
I am so stressed out! School work seems to be piling up and its freaking me out! There is only three weeks left of school and I can't wait! This is hell! Ugh!!! I'm just having one of those days... usually I am calm and able to handle my stress, but not today. Today, I'm feeling anxious and worried. I hate having days like this. I think it might partially be due to the fact I haven't seen my boyfriend in a while and I haven't been able to... relieve my stress. I think I just need a good night's sleep...
My memory issues having been getting worse. Due to my PTSD, my brain's ability to process short term memory into long term memory is impacted. I struggle really hard with remembering even simple things. Sometimes in the middle of a conversation, I will forget everything that was just said on either side. My boyfriend says that I can get better if I do memory exercises and make it a priority, but honestly I wonder if there is even a point. Maybe the damage is permanent and there is nothing I can do? I don't know... but it is making me really upset.
I also think I gained a bit of weight. I've been stress eating. I hate myself for it, but I can't help it. I don't know what to do with myself. This is really rough... I know I will get through it... but it sucks so much right now. Ugh. I have to go do a presentation for the first year child and youth care students about the Teen Program that I co-created in about an hour... I can't wait to get that over with. I am excited to talk about it, because I'm passionate about it... but I'm also tired and I have a lot of anxiety about school right now.
I just needed to vent. That is it for now. I will try to blog again soon.
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