Thursday, May 14, 2015

Heaven is a place on earth

♪♫ Nothing

Two and a half more weeks to go! I cannot wait until I am out of this hell hole. I’m never subjecting myself to this disgraceful behavior ever again. Be disgusting all you want to.. no woman is gonna stick around once she sees how you live! Grow the fuck up!

I’ve got almost everything I need for the move. I have a special large tote for all the new clothes, products, etc that I bought for myself. I just need: a pair of sneakers, two pairs of yoga pants, rubber boots, hairspray, heat protecting spray, makeup, and a zip up hoodie. Sometime in the middle of the summer, I’m gonna need: a bed frame, bed sheets, a duvet, two pillows, a scale, workout clothes, and sneakers for the gym. I hope it all works out!

I’m not sure how much I weigh right now. I know that I’m approximately 80lbs overweight though. My goal is to lose all of my excess fat in a year! I know its possible. I used to be thin. Plus I’ve done a ton of research, and read lots of inspiring stories. I’d love to wear pants with a one digit size, and wear tops in a small/medium! I can’t wait to be hot again!

I’m also thinking about writing a book about overcoming my mental illnesses and being an abuse survivor. I really want to help other people who are dealing with similar issues. I’d also love to write fiction stories, mainly in the fantasy genre. But I’d like to focus on my personal story first. I hope I find the time to complete it!

My life looks like its gonna be amazing. I’m so excited to get started! But sadly, I have two more weeks of absolute hell here. I have to stay in my bedroom, feeling depressed, only eating junk food, feeling awkward, and scared to touch anything due to germs. I will not miss this place at all. I won’t miss the two idiots who live here. I hope I completely forget about them. This was not a good experience. I deserve so much better.

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