♪♫ Straight On - Heart
The other night certainly took a turn that I didn't expect. Matt and I watched This Is The End and played some GTA IV. There was a bit of cuddling and hand holding again. And I was waiting for him to make a move. But he didn't. So we went outside, I had a smoke and he was gonna head home. But he ended up sticking around. And kept staring at me...looking deep in thought. Then I went to go back inside and he followed me. He kept getting close to me, then backing away. Turns out that he has never made the first move on someone before, so he was nervous. I wanted him to come out of his shell, so I ended up inviting him back upstairs.
After an hour or so, he began getting more cuddly. He was playing with my hair and touching my face. And I was loving it. But also really into playing GTA IV. He kept telling me to turn around and I didn't want to. I was nervous. It turned into a play fight and I got up off my bed and stood in front of my window. And he followed. He stood there for a minute, then he grabbed me and kissed me so passionately that I was slammed into the window. It surprised the hell out of me. I didn't expect to feel what I felt...I don't even know how to describe it. It was like butterflies on fire. I never wanted to stop.
We continued kissing for another hour. We couldn't stop. The feeling was so intense, which scared me a bit. I've never felt like that before. And when he eventually had to leave...it took almost an hour. We stood in my doorway and kept kissing. We would stop and try to say goodbye, then I would see that look in his eye and we'd be kissing again. Our hands were all over each other. He was so confident. A completely different side of him that I've never seen before. When he eventually did leave, I went to bed and began to miss him. I wanted him cuddling with me. ^_^ ♥
Yesterday I woke up and immediately thought about him again. I can't get him off my mind. I don't know what I'm feeling. I'm scared and I'm excited. I want to run away and I want to stay. I don't know what to do. But aside from that; I got three more things in the mail; my Supernatural shirt, Twin Peaks DVD set and Dune on DVD. Y'know what that means? My David Lynch collection is complete! I'm so beyond happy! :D
My mum brought pizza home for our dinner. Probably because I made a big deal about how her and my step dad eat dinner together without me all the fucking time, LOL. I had to eat quickly though, because I had to call the clinic and make another appointment. Oh joy...
Matt came with me to the appointment. I was originally gonna walk...but it was cold and I felt sick. So we got a taxi...which took forever. Ugh. But at least I made it there. And there was pretty much no one there. Which meant that I got in really quickly...right after I downed a bottle of water to be able to pee in a cup and Matt borrowed my hat and looked adorable, LOL. But anyways...for some reason they don't have a record of me being there a little over a week ago. Weird. So I got prescribed the most intense antibiotics for a bladder infection. Should clear it all up. I hope...
Matt and I caught a bus to the grocery store/pharmacy. We walked around for twenty minutes while they completed my prescription. And of course; it went horribly wrong. With my bad luck...no surprise. Apparently my insurance didn't cover the pills, so I had to pay $35 (which I can't afford) for them. I was so angry. Poor Matt had to deal with me being cranky until we got to my house. Somehow we ended up making out in the stairwell of my building. And just as we got up...my parents came through the door. Good timing. And my mum invited him to come inside.
So basically we played it cool until my mum left, then we spent hours making out...among other things. I scratched the hell out of his back and he has bite marks on his neck. It was so passionate. I've never felt like I wanted someone more in my entire life. And I learned that we suck at saying goodbye. Every time he went to leave, we ended up making out again and he would just come back inside my house. We need to work on that, LOL.
Today I spent quite a while cleaning my room and re-arranging a little bit. My mum excluded me from dinner again...so I texted Matt and got him to bring me some chilli. What a sweetheart he is. And we watched Twin Peaks. But we also did some...sexual things. That were completely amazing I should add. I think...maybe...its love!? I don't know. I've never felt like this before. :O
The other night certainly took a turn that I didn't expect. Matt and I watched This Is The End and played some GTA IV. There was a bit of cuddling and hand holding again. And I was waiting for him to make a move. But he didn't. So we went outside, I had a smoke and he was gonna head home. But he ended up sticking around. And kept staring at me...looking deep in thought. Then I went to go back inside and he followed me. He kept getting close to me, then backing away. Turns out that he has never made the first move on someone before, so he was nervous. I wanted him to come out of his shell, so I ended up inviting him back upstairs.
After an hour or so, he began getting more cuddly. He was playing with my hair and touching my face. And I was loving it. But also really into playing GTA IV. He kept telling me to turn around and I didn't want to. I was nervous. It turned into a play fight and I got up off my bed and stood in front of my window. And he followed. He stood there for a minute, then he grabbed me and kissed me so passionately that I was slammed into the window. It surprised the hell out of me. I didn't expect to feel what I felt...I don't even know how to describe it. It was like butterflies on fire. I never wanted to stop.
We continued kissing for another hour. We couldn't stop. The feeling was so intense, which scared me a bit. I've never felt like that before. And when he eventually had to leave...it took almost an hour. We stood in my doorway and kept kissing. We would stop and try to say goodbye, then I would see that look in his eye and we'd be kissing again. Our hands were all over each other. He was so confident. A completely different side of him that I've never seen before. When he eventually did leave, I went to bed and began to miss him. I wanted him cuddling with me. ^_^ ♥
Yesterday I woke up and immediately thought about him again. I can't get him off my mind. I don't know what I'm feeling. I'm scared and I'm excited. I want to run away and I want to stay. I don't know what to do. But aside from that; I got three more things in the mail; my Supernatural shirt, Twin Peaks DVD set and Dune on DVD. Y'know what that means? My David Lynch collection is complete! I'm so beyond happy! :D
My mum brought pizza home for our dinner. Probably because I made a big deal about how her and my step dad eat dinner together without me all the fucking time, LOL. I had to eat quickly though, because I had to call the clinic and make another appointment. Oh joy...
Matt came with me to the appointment. I was originally gonna walk...but it was cold and I felt sick. So we got a taxi...which took forever. Ugh. But at least I made it there. And there was pretty much no one there. Which meant that I got in really quickly...right after I downed a bottle of water to be able to pee in a cup and Matt borrowed my hat and looked adorable, LOL. But anyways...for some reason they don't have a record of me being there a little over a week ago. Weird. So I got prescribed the most intense antibiotics for a bladder infection. Should clear it all up. I hope...
Matt and I caught a bus to the grocery store/pharmacy. We walked around for twenty minutes while they completed my prescription. And of course; it went horribly wrong. With my bad luck...no surprise. Apparently my insurance didn't cover the pills, so I had to pay $35 (which I can't afford) for them. I was so angry. Poor Matt had to deal with me being cranky until we got to my house. Somehow we ended up making out in the stairwell of my building. And just as we got up...my parents came through the door. Good timing. And my mum invited him to come inside.
So basically we played it cool until my mum left, then we spent hours making out...among other things. I scratched the hell out of his back and he has bite marks on his neck. It was so passionate. I've never felt like I wanted someone more in my entire life. And I learned that we suck at saying goodbye. Every time he went to leave, we ended up making out again and he would just come back inside my house. We need to work on that, LOL.
Today I spent quite a while cleaning my room and re-arranging a little bit. My mum excluded me from dinner again...so I texted Matt and got him to bring me some chilli. What a sweetheart he is. And we watched Twin Peaks. But we also did some...sexual things. That were completely amazing I should add. I think...maybe...its love!? I don't know. I've never felt like this before. :O
someones in loveeee! haha this is such a cute entry and how u described your moments with the boyfriend.Treasure each one girl :)
ReplyDeletepizza sounds gooodddd you got me craving for it now lol
Aw so cute that you were both so nervous. Sometimes the moments leading up to it can be even more intense than the actual kiss. But sounds like the first kiss was even better! Haha so glad you've got some passion in your life :P
ReplyDeleteApparently, I have been so out of the loop lately, this Matt seems like a great guy and he's there with you a lot :D Not to be a weirdo, but I love reading about the "first loves" kind of things, it's so adorable and love is just awesome, or the first kisses, things like that. Just... ah, so cute ^_^
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