♪♫ Nothing
Today has been really hard on me. About a week ago, my mom lost her job. When I woke up this morning...my step dad was packing his things and moving out. Apparently he had it planned for a month. My mom was happy. I was too. Until we realized that we have no money and we are screwed. We are both so upset and worried. I don't wanna be homeless. I'm so stressed out about this. :(
I left to hangout with some people, including my boyfriend. They did their best to cheer me up and it did help...but I'm still sad. My boyfriend bought me dinner, which was lovely. I couldn't eat much though. My stomach has shrunk, because there has been hardly any food in my house for a couple weeks. I felt dizzy a few times and had to deal with some anxiety too.
When I got home, I decided to stop using Tumblr. Been thinking about it for a few days now. Its all just random pictures, drama, personal problems and drugs. Tumblr is a hot mess. And it hurts to see my friends post about their drug use (speed has become a cool thing to do). A lot of my friends have been doing speed everyday for a couple months now. They're consumed by it and it worries me so badly. I talked with them about it, briefly. It didn't help. :(
But with all that shit piled up...I'm still making it through. I've got some dreams that I'm focusing on. I want to get my GED, go to university, travel, write a book...I also really want to have Christmas this year. I don't care that much about presents. I want a Turkey dinner (we can get into a church program for poor people and get free Christmas dinner), a tree (already have it), Christmas music and movies (got those too). Okay...maybe I want a gift or two. Nothing too expensive (a bookbag and a box of turtles. Thats about $30 worth of stuff). I hope things get better soon! :(
Today has been really hard on me. About a week ago, my mom lost her job. When I woke up this morning...my step dad was packing his things and moving out. Apparently he had it planned for a month. My mom was happy. I was too. Until we realized that we have no money and we are screwed. We are both so upset and worried. I don't wanna be homeless. I'm so stressed out about this. :(
I left to hangout with some people, including my boyfriend. They did their best to cheer me up and it did help...but I'm still sad. My boyfriend bought me dinner, which was lovely. I couldn't eat much though. My stomach has shrunk, because there has been hardly any food in my house for a couple weeks. I felt dizzy a few times and had to deal with some anxiety too.
When I got home, I decided to stop using Tumblr. Been thinking about it for a few days now. Its all just random pictures, drama, personal problems and drugs. Tumblr is a hot mess. And it hurts to see my friends post about their drug use (speed has become a cool thing to do). A lot of my friends have been doing speed everyday for a couple months now. They're consumed by it and it worries me so badly. I talked with them about it, briefly. It didn't help. :(
But with all that shit piled up...I'm still making it through. I've got some dreams that I'm focusing on. I want to get my GED, go to university, travel, write a book...I also really want to have Christmas this year. I don't care that much about presents. I want a Turkey dinner (we can get into a church program for poor people and get free Christmas dinner), a tree (already have it), Christmas music and movies (got those too). Okay...maybe I want a gift or two. Nothing too expensive (a bookbag and a box of turtles. Thats about $30 worth of stuff). I hope things get better soon! :(
Dude, I'm so, so sorry to hear about your situation. Like, it's a plus that you guys are happy that your step dad has left, but it sucks so bad that you're left wondering about where you're going to live if you guys have no money and such. I really hope things brighten up for both you and your mother! I wish you the best of luck in whatever you're going to do about this problem *hugs*
ReplyDeleteTumblr sounds like a hot mess from what you're saying. I tend to stay off of it most of the time I'm online, lol. If I have something I really want to post or get off my laptop, it goes on Tumblr and I never look at it again. I never really get involved with anyone else on there, though, so I don't notice any drama or anything else on there. I'm all set with that as I can see you are as well.