nothing lasts forever

♪♫ Dust In The Wind - Kansas

I'm finally (after two weeks) writing an actual blog. But first, I'm gonna explain why I didn't blog. A few weeks ago, I was laying in bed and thinking about my life. I came to the realization that I didn't know who I was. I didn't know where my life was going, I felt like I had failed and I felt like something was missing. I decided that I needed a vacation to clear my mind and come up with a solution. So I called my grandmother and asked if I could stay at her house for a few weeks. She agreed and I left a week later.

While I was there, I found myself. I know that may sound silly, but its true. I had felt lost for a very long time. And finally, I know who I am. I think a lot of people stuggle with knowing who they are. They try out a bunch of differet styles, personalities, jobs, etc. I used to be the exact same way before this vacation. Now I'm finally myself and it feels lovely.

I also know what I want to do with my life...well sorta. I know that I want to go back to school and graduate. I hope to get high honors, then proceed to university. Not sure what career I want, but I'll figure it out along the way.

And last but not least, I figured out what was missing: family. I've never felt like I had an actual family. Its something I'd love to have someday and I'm gonna need a good job to support them...which is where school comes in the picture.

I feel like I've gotten a second chance, a fresh start, inspiration and motivation. Everything is gonna change for the better now. :)

Now I'm gonna write all the highlights of the last few weeks, in bullet form. Its not in order by the way...

Went shopping (got: tops, sweaters, peace sign ring, cowboy hat, Led Zeppelin bag, band pins, Ramones wallet, hair straightener + matching brush, makeup, headphones, cell phone charm, green lighter and a few more small things.)

Went to the beach.

Hungout with my cousin Tristian.

Stayed overnight at my dad's.

Watched Inception, Puff Puff Pass, Friday The 13th and Thor.

Watched new episodes of Supernatural.

Went to a BBQ.

Went to a tea party.

Went to Eastern Passage.

Went to the museum to see Sue (the world's largest dinosaur).

Spent time with my grandfather.

Visited my Uncle Patrick, Aunt Michelle and cousin Christina.

Had ice cream from Cold Stone Creamery for the first time.

Got a netbook (I named him Jimmy).

Went out for dinner with family (Steak and Stein, Swiss Chalet, Pizza Hut, etc).

Went to the doctor because of an infection. Also got some medication.

Got sad 'cause I can't go to the Metallica concert.

Started eating a bit healthier and lost some weight.

Got Cinnabon Stix with icing and a Pretzel with cream cheese. (they don't have a Cinnabon or Pretzelmaker where I live).

Went on a ferry.

Got my gold bracelet fixed.

Started watching American Idol and became a fan of Haley Reinhart.

Got a really funny picture of my cat.

Theres probably a few more things, I just can't think of them right now. But yeah...I had a very productive few weeks.

And heres a few pictures...

Random picture of me.

Me wearing my cowboy hat.

My netbook, Jimmy. Yes, I name my electronics, lmao. I named him after Jimmy Page (Guitarist for Led Zeppelin), Jim Morrison (Lead singer of The Doors), Jimmy Novak (Supernatural character) and Jim Beaver (Plays Bobby in Supernatural).

The first picture I took with my netbook. My cat KiKi! The quality kinda sucks, but oh well...

The funny picture of my cat, LOL.

Thats all for now.