i'm a lazy sod

♪♫ Evenstar - Lord Of The Rings Soundtrack

I'm sooo sorry I have been neglecting this blog. I've had a lot going on lately...but its all over with now. I'm also feeling a lot better about everything...I just wish things would have been different. Because in the end, everyone got what they wanted...except for me.

"I’ve never been good at letting go. Maybe its because so many people have let go of me. I hold on so tightly, only to have you slip away..."

I want to say sorry & tell you it was all a nightmare. But I can't & you know it. Because I can't control what happened anymore than I can control breathing. You'll never know the pain I feel inside, for eternity. I'll never be able to change this. Because of that, I'm torn apart. Things will never be the same...

Now that I've got that off my chest...what else should I say? Oh, yes...I'm getting a pet rat next week! I'm really excited! It shall be a black one & honestly, I haven't decided if I want a male or a female. But...I picked out some names anyways...

» Frodo.
» Eowyn.
» Sammy.
» Scabbers.
» Ron.

Thats all I have so far. If you have any other name ideas, let me know!

Also, I think I mentioned this before...I don't remember though, so I'll say it again; my boyfriend & I broke up. It happened like three weeks ago. Honestly it hurt at first, but I realized him & I were just meant to be friends. So don't be all like "Oh my god, I'm so sorry to hear that. Things get better...blah blah blah." because I assure you, I'm fine.

I got my hair done...a while ago. There is red, black & blonde streaks in it now. I love it, even though the red faded & it looks pink now. I plan on getting green streaks when the red completely fades. Oh & my whole "growing my hair out" plan is going pretty good so far. Wanna see!? Okay, look below. :)

Last night I went to my friend's birthday party. Everyone got completely hammered...including me. It was an amazing night. Especially when Greg took his clothes off, ran around the field screaming "check out my swagger!" then grabbed Paul's leg & screamed "I walk with a swagger!" until Paul punched him in the face. I didn't stop laughing until I went to bed that night. Heres some pictures from the party (I always look so awkward in party pictures)...

Oh. My. God. I almost forgot...I got a BlackBerry Torch! I'm sooo addicted, I go to sleep holding it...aha, thats pretty bad. I get why they call it a "CrackBerry" now...

Well...I think thats it. I'm going to make breakfast & have a Lord of the Rings marathon. So leave some comments & I'll return them within the next few days. Goodbye!